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Yesterday, I saw my psychiatrist. She wants me to push my boundaries and try to get out of the house more, specifically to experiment with riding different buses to different destinations. I really don't want to. I can't think of anywhere I want to or need to go, and 'because it's good for me' isn't enough reason to get me to overcome my anxiety. I'm actually very happy with my little, circumscribed life most of the time.

We are going to try reducing my Geodon. I've been taking 40 mg at lunch and 80 mg at dinner (it should be at bedtime, but I can't eat after 8:00 p.m. if I'm to go to bed at 11:00, and Geodon must be taken with food to be absorbed). I'll be taking 40 and 40 for the next five weeks just to see if that makes any difference. Neither of us is convinced that the Geodon is doing anything. I'm going to continue taking Wellbutrin twice a day (though I don't know that that's doing anything either). Anyway, if I get more anxious, we'll increase the Geodon again.

We did discuss my taking Ativan. I find it useful when I remember that I've got it. I think it will make a difference for Girl Scout meetings and might let me attend PTO meetings (they've moved those to Monday nights. Last year and in years past, they were on Wednesdays and pretty much always conflicted with Scott's game). I just have to remember to take the dratted stuff in advance. The pills are tiny and ought, in theory, be easy to dry swallow, but in practice, they dissolve on my tongue into a nasty mess before I can manage to swallow them.

After seeing the psychiatrist, I walked to State Street (from Main Street, about the limits of what I can walk) to have lunch at Totoro. I had a chicken teriyaki bento and a Dr Pepper and read a book on my e-reader while I ate.

I got home about 1:00, and

nakki_no_miko (I feel a little weird using LJ handles for people who haven't visited LJ in years, but really, it's easier than being really vague) came to visit. I hadn't seen her for a couple of years. She's looking for a new job because her old one is about to disappear. She's been working for the trust that's been tying up Border's finances, and the work there is very nearly done.

I wish I could persuade her to post her fanfic on AO3, but she's attached to AdultFanFiction.net because that's where she turned when ff.net kicked out all the explicit fic. I suppose as long as she's happy with it. She's got an audience there after all.

Scott had to go in to work at 3 a.m. today. He expects it to be a really annoying day. There's some sort of quality control problem, and they're going to unload a couple of trucks worth of bottles and inspect each bottle individually then repack the good ones. They'll spend eight hours on that.

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my therapist is on me to get out of the house more too. I have some anxiety about leaving the house, but a lot of it is just there is jack all to do around here. you are in ann arbor right? I actually have a travel guide around here for Ann arbor, you have so many great restaurants and stuff there! I don't know how tight your budget is but if you can swing it, make it a "treat" trip. You get to go somewhere and have lunch that you normally can't go because either scott or cordelia won't eat there. I have to travel 90 mile round trips for me to be able to eat Japanese food :(

I really can't afford to eat out often. Even once a week is probably too much (the reason why I probably won't do it after my eye exam on Wednesday).

Also, all of the restaurants that interest me are on the #2 bus route. That's the one I can take most easily. It goes to central campus and downtown. The next easiest bus is the #1 which could take me to the farmer's market if I could get out of the house. The #1 is currently detoured, so I can't take it outbound to get anywhere I want to go. I probably should experiment with the #2 outbound, but there's nothing out there that I want to visit.

Maybe I could go shopping. There's a mall on the #6 route, and there's a big used clothing store on Maple Road (I don't know how close the bus goes to that, though. The streets out there are crazy busy, so walking very far is a bad idea).

I can't go to the movies because I get migraines (not to mention how expensive it is).

All the museums are on central campus. Going to them might be a good idea anyway. I'm not sure how expensive the museums are, though.

price is often a factor for me too. If I could afford the gas I could drive to crawfordsville or someplace and see a movie or shop somewhere other than walmart, but.....gas is to damn expensive, and driving is painful for my leg.

If you are getting SSD and offically disabled, some states have special cards you can apply for that allows you entrance into museums and parks for free, or they used to.