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I think this not being able to sleep in the mornings thing may relate to my anxiety levels. I simply could not get back to sleep after Scott got up this morning. I couldn't even get close. I already ache from poor sleep, and I expect it will only get worse as the week goes on. At least, since I'm not taking oral contraceptives these days, I don't have to worry about getting an untreatable headache from lack of sleep.
I suppose I could call my psychiatrist and ask about something to help me sleep, but I'm not sure there would be a good option-- It's not that I'm failing to fall asleep right when I go to bed. It's that I'm waking way too early and finding myself thoroughly awake. I don't want to sleep through Scott's alarm, however, as that's when I take my thyroid medicine. I need to be awake enough to do that but still enough in sleep mode that I can sleep another two or three hours afterward.
This morning, Cordelia stumbled out of bed after I'd been up for about ten minutes and demanded to know what on earth I was doing. I told her, and then I sent her back to bed. I have no idea if she'll actually sleep. I hope so.
Cordelia was willing enough to go to the library yesterday, but she objected to going for bubble tea. She said she wanted to get home, and that was more important. Combining that with her rejection of ice cream, donuts, or any other treat on Saturday (again, in favor of getting home sooner) and her unwillingness to go out for dinner on Thursday, well, I'm disturbed. It could be some sort of thing about being twelve and finding her parents undesirable company in public, but I don't think so. She didn't try to avoid going on the test drive expedition or the library trip. Most likely, it's just that she's talking to her friends online and doesn't want to miss anything, but, still, I worry about agoraphobia.
Scott is going over and over his car buying data. Of the cars he can reasonably expect to be able to drive comfortably, the Subaru Forester has the very best safety rating. The Outback is close, and that was slightly more comfortable for me. He's wondering if he should be looking at other options, too, but that safety rating is a really big deal. It's our second major criterion, coming just after whether or not Scott can see out the windshield when he's sitting upright. (In the rental car, he's got a huge blind spot in front because of how tall he is and where the rearview mirror is.) After that, we consider probable durability, probable mpg, comfort for me and Cordelia, and so on.
Scott's only purchased three cars in his life, so he's terrified that he'll make a bad decision. He's trying to weigh the potential savings of buying used against the likelihood of expensive repairs and the need for a replacement coming sooner. Ideally, we want a car that will last a decade without needing anything but routine maintenance. He also really, really doesn't like the fact that our cash reserves (aka Cordelia's Social Security money in her savings account) is nearly depleted. We're going to need to dip into that again to put a down payment on whatever we end up buying. There are still other expensive things that could go wrong around our house. The stove, the washer, and the drier are all about twenty years old, for example, and there are things we ought to do for the garage (but I think we're going to end up ignoring that garage until it finally collapses, 5-10 years from now. Which would be a pity, but we really haven't got money to put into it. I just hope there isn't anything in it that Scott values when it happens).
I poked through the prompts for Parallels and Fic Corner and found a few that interest me. I probably won't end up doing anything with any of them because of time issues and because none of them gave me immediate story ideas. I have so many other things that I ought to work on. Some of the Fic Corner prompts are for things I wouldn't have been brave enough to offer if I had signed up. (Part of what decided me not to sign up was not seeing fandoms I was certain I could write.) I haven't quite dared look at the NFE prompts as I've already got two or three Narnia WIP that aren't going anywhere. I've never actually written a treat for an exchange. I like the idea of doing it, but I never seem to get anywhere with it.
I suppose I could call my psychiatrist and ask about something to help me sleep, but I'm not sure there would be a good option-- It's not that I'm failing to fall asleep right when I go to bed. It's that I'm waking way too early and finding myself thoroughly awake. I don't want to sleep through Scott's alarm, however, as that's when I take my thyroid medicine. I need to be awake enough to do that but still enough in sleep mode that I can sleep another two or three hours afterward.
This morning, Cordelia stumbled out of bed after I'd been up for about ten minutes and demanded to know what on earth I was doing. I told her, and then I sent her back to bed. I have no idea if she'll actually sleep. I hope so.
Cordelia was willing enough to go to the library yesterday, but she objected to going for bubble tea. She said she wanted to get home, and that was more important. Combining that with her rejection of ice cream, donuts, or any other treat on Saturday (again, in favor of getting home sooner) and her unwillingness to go out for dinner on Thursday, well, I'm disturbed. It could be some sort of thing about being twelve and finding her parents undesirable company in public, but I don't think so. She didn't try to avoid going on the test drive expedition or the library trip. Most likely, it's just that she's talking to her friends online and doesn't want to miss anything, but, still, I worry about agoraphobia.
Scott is going over and over his car buying data. Of the cars he can reasonably expect to be able to drive comfortably, the Subaru Forester has the very best safety rating. The Outback is close, and that was slightly more comfortable for me. He's wondering if he should be looking at other options, too, but that safety rating is a really big deal. It's our second major criterion, coming just after whether or not Scott can see out the windshield when he's sitting upright. (In the rental car, he's got a huge blind spot in front because of how tall he is and where the rearview mirror is.) After that, we consider probable durability, probable mpg, comfort for me and Cordelia, and so on.
Scott's only purchased three cars in his life, so he's terrified that he'll make a bad decision. He's trying to weigh the potential savings of buying used against the likelihood of expensive repairs and the need for a replacement coming sooner. Ideally, we want a car that will last a decade without needing anything but routine maintenance. He also really, really doesn't like the fact that our cash reserves (aka Cordelia's Social Security money in her savings account) is nearly depleted. We're going to need to dip into that again to put a down payment on whatever we end up buying. There are still other expensive things that could go wrong around our house. The stove, the washer, and the drier are all about twenty years old, for example, and there are things we ought to do for the garage (but I think we're going to end up ignoring that garage until it finally collapses, 5-10 years from now. Which would be a pity, but we really haven't got money to put into it. I just hope there isn't anything in it that Scott values when it happens).
I poked through the prompts for Parallels and Fic Corner and found a few that interest me. I probably won't end up doing anything with any of them because of time issues and because none of them gave me immediate story ideas. I have so many other things that I ought to work on. Some of the Fic Corner prompts are for things I wouldn't have been brave enough to offer if I had signed up. (Part of what decided me not to sign up was not seeing fandoms I was certain I could write.) I haven't quite dared look at the NFE prompts as I've already got two or three Narnia WIP that aren't going anywhere. I've never actually written a treat for an exchange. I like the idea of doing it, but I never seem to get anywhere with it.