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Dec. 8th, 2015 01:18 pmI apparently forgot to tell the woman who’s been bringing us dinner on Mondays that we didn’t need it this week. She brought us pasta with Alfredo sauce that had carrot chunks and shredded chicken in it. I was pleased because it gave me a reasonable alternative for dinner. I’m not enthusiastic about pasta, generally, but I don’t hate it, and I could be certain that it wouldn’t make me sick.
I lay down for a couple of hours yesterday afternoon. I didn’t actually sleep. Cordelia came in about every twenty minutes to hug me and to reassure herself that I was fine. She does this so consistently when I lie down to rest that I hesitate to do it. It obviously worries her.
I’m having less pain, I think, but the hydrocodone doesn’t help with what’s left. That is, there’s no difference when the hydrocodone wears off. I’ve basically got a couple of strips along the outside of my breast that are still stiff and covered with hardened skin. I know that that will flake off eventually, but it’s hard to be patient even though I know that doing anything will just make things worse. I’m still doing that Domeboro soaks and using the silvadene.
I’ve been feeling cold during the day and way, way too warm at night. I have no idea if it’s the tamoxifen or if it’s just happening. It’s keeping me awaked at night because, if I’m cold, I can always pile on more blankets but there’s a limit to how much I can peel off before I’m down to just me and the air around me. I’m actually tempted to ask Scott if he’d be okay with having the ceiling fan going at night. He gets cold, though, and he’s got a very narrow window for sleeping, so I don’t know.
I’m also, off and on, having joint aches. I had that a bit during radiation, so this could be left over from that. It could also be the tamoxifen. The Mayo Clinic lists it as a possible side effect though nobody else does. I really don’t know. The Mayo Clinic pages on various drugs always include side effects that nobody else bothers to list. Normally, I’d see that as a danger sign that the website wasn’t to be relied on, but this is the Mayo Clinic. I don’t think they got the reputation they’ve got by giving out bad information.
I’m still trying to pull my head together enough to write. I don’t know when that’s going to happen, but I want it to. I may have to trick myself into just starting. I don’t know.
I lay down for a couple of hours yesterday afternoon. I didn’t actually sleep. Cordelia came in about every twenty minutes to hug me and to reassure herself that I was fine. She does this so consistently when I lie down to rest that I hesitate to do it. It obviously worries her.
I’m having less pain, I think, but the hydrocodone doesn’t help with what’s left. That is, there’s no difference when the hydrocodone wears off. I’ve basically got a couple of strips along the outside of my breast that are still stiff and covered with hardened skin. I know that that will flake off eventually, but it’s hard to be patient even though I know that doing anything will just make things worse. I’m still doing that Domeboro soaks and using the silvadene.
I’ve been feeling cold during the day and way, way too warm at night. I have no idea if it’s the tamoxifen or if it’s just happening. It’s keeping me awaked at night because, if I’m cold, I can always pile on more blankets but there’s a limit to how much I can peel off before I’m down to just me and the air around me. I’m actually tempted to ask Scott if he’d be okay with having the ceiling fan going at night. He gets cold, though, and he’s got a very narrow window for sleeping, so I don’t know.
I’m also, off and on, having joint aches. I had that a bit during radiation, so this could be left over from that. It could also be the tamoxifen. The Mayo Clinic lists it as a possible side effect though nobody else does. I really don’t know. The Mayo Clinic pages on various drugs always include side effects that nobody else bothers to list. Normally, I’d see that as a danger sign that the website wasn’t to be relied on, but this is the Mayo Clinic. I don’t think they got the reputation they’ve got by giving out bad information.
I’m still trying to pull my head together enough to write. I don’t know when that’s going to happen, but I want it to. I may have to trick myself into just starting. I don’t know.
