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I slept really, really terribly last night. Every time I started to fall asleep, I had reflux issues. I had had some vanilla ice cream, and that made the reflux not be of the burning kind. I just kept coughing and jerking upright. Sleeping on an incline doesn't help. Not even sleeping upright helps. The trigger seems to be me starting to fall asleep. That somehow makes something in my body relax enough that the reflux starts.

I know perfectly well that the thing I need to do when that starts is to go and sit upright for 30 to 60 minutes before I try to lie down again. It's just very hard to get myself to do that when I'm utterly exhausted and desperate for sleep. I think I finally managed to sleep about 3 a.m., and I really couldn't get myself out of bed when it was time to get up to help Cordelia get ready for school. I have no idea what would have happened if Scott hadn't been able to step in at that point. I'd probably have managed somehow. I just have no idea how.

Scott came back to bed after walking Cordelia to the bus stop. We both slept another four hours. I'd have liked to sleep longer, but I had a horrible headache and knew that I needed to get up to take my medications. I still have the headache, and I can't tell if it's due to lack of sleep, due to menstrual stuff, due to stress, or due to something else I haven't thought of. I've taken naproxen and have had caffeine. I've also eaten. Cordelia has an appointment in two hours, so I don't think that a nap is going to be possible.
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I tried to nap this morning, but by the time I finally relaxed enough to maybe be ready to fall asleep, it was twenty minutes before I had to be up to go to an oncology appointment. I'd had 2.5 hours when I lay down. The appointment was fine but took much longer than I expected because I had to wait twenty minutes to check out afterward. I'll be going back in four months because the nurse practitioner I see picked up on me being nervous about waiting until June to check in. I'm not sure if she quite understands that I don't trust mammograms right now because the mammogram didn't see the lump until six months after I first found it.

I got a flu shot while iI was at the appointment, and it's really hurting this year. Moving the arm at all is unpleasant. The nurse who did the shot put it very high up on the arm. I actually thought she was going to put it into the joint itself.

I'm really glad that Scott didn't work today because parent teacher conferences were grueling. Cordelia's geometry teacher and social studies teacher both had really, really long lines. It took an hour to get through the line to see the geometry teacher and almost as long to see the social studies teacher. Scott saw the business fundamentals teacher without me, while I waited in line for the social studies teacher.

All the teachers seemed pleased with Cordelia. We found out that a couple of the teachers had mailing lists that we weren't on due to Cordelia having been at Community for those three days. The geometry teacher told us that we weren't the first to express unhappiness with 8th grade math at Cordelia's old school. I got the impression that the other parent(s) were also concerned about their kid(s) not having the necessary fundamentals.

The business teacher seems to have talked Scott's ear off. Scott was gone for quite a while for that. Scott says that the teacher is frustrated by the kids who don't understand the difference between writing a ten page research paper and preparing a presentation.

I think my body is starting up another period. The last one started on the 27th, so this is much sooner than is normal for me.

I suspect I'm not going to sleep much tonight because we bought food at Wendy's before the conference. I basically fell over in exhaustion a bit before the cleaning lady left, and we had to get something that wouldn't take long and that might give me enough oomph to get through three hours of conferences. The burger did that much, at least. I was still pretty dead on my feet until about an hour after I ate, but now, almost four hours later, I'm still pretty awake. Unfortunately, my digestive system isn't happy. The timing is bad for any of the things that might help relative to my medications. If I take everything now, I can have vanilla ice cream in an hour which might help (about a 75% chance).

Just have to make myself stand up again...
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Three interlibrary loan books done. Three to go. Two of those can't be renewed, but the third is a volume of manga and so will likely end up being read first.

I came up with a title for one of my WIP yesterday, changed the sheets, and ran two loads of laundry.

We watched Supergirl last night. I hope I get more into this season than last season because I'm not going to be allowed to drift away to do something else when it comes on. I think that part of my problem last season was simply not comprehending the attraction of Mon-El.

Oh-- Now I know why I got cranky when I watched last season-- The point of his arc was him becoming a responsible person, but the timing and the writing made it him becoming a responsible person not through choice or circumstances but rather because Kara loved him, and I loathe that trope.

I'm tired enough that I'm missing things like tracking who I'm chatting with online or remembering that I refilled that one prescription Friday and didn't need to ask my doctor for a renewal (which I totally did before I realized). I'm also losing track of what things on my to do list I've dealt with and which I haven't. Those are a little easier because I can, say, look at the sink and see the presence or absence of dirty dishes.

My Gdoc of potential titles (mostly song or poetry fragments) is getting too long to work with. The response time is sluggish, and I know that separating it into pieces would help, but that will be ever so much less convenient. 36 pages is just too long, but this isn't something with obvious break points or useful ways of sorting things. Dividing by author would cut the length but make browsing a PITA. Dividing by theme-- Well, I can't actually tell what sort of theme a particular snippet is likely to fit. Maybe use of certain substantive nouns like 'time' or 'wind' or 'mirror'? Except that I'm sure there are a lot of snippets that wouldn't sort that way.

Anybody in need of a few dozen titles? Free to good home.
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I successfully performed a summon-repairman ritual this morning. The window for him to come started an hour ago. I lay down with the idea of napping because I was nodding off. Less than five minutes in, I got the call from his company saying that he'd be here in about twenty minutes. I had to wait half an hour after that for the guy to arrive, but the actual repair took under ten minutes, even with the paperwork.

I tried napping yesterday afternoon. I was just so utterly exhausted that I desperately needed it. Sadly, I didn't fall asleep until I only had about half an hour left before I had to be up. I had hoped for more given that I had almost three hours and took a Halcion. I got up to use the bathroom once, but, other than that, I was undisturbed.

I haven't had a walk yet today. One of Cordelia's more distant friends from her old school was with us for the last twenty minutes before time to go, and I didn't want to accompany the girls because I thought it might embarrass Cordelia even if I was just going in the same general direction rather than officially walking with them. This was the first time taking the bus to school for this particular girl. She takes it home every day, but her mother usually drives her to school.

Scott has a nasty cold with sinus congestion and a sore throat. I'm hoping that I won't catch it, but I don't know that I've got much chance of avoiding it. He couldn't use his bi-PAP last night and so snored terribly and woke still feeling exhausted.

I made some reasonable progress on finishing one of my stories for [community profile] weissvsaiyuki last night. It's very near to the ending unless I decide that it needs an explicit sex scene. I was going to have one, but then I realized that all of the plot pertinent stuff happening right then had zero to do with the sex and flowed much better if I didn't try to put those details in.

Okay. Time to lie down again and see if I can sleep at all.
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Cordelia went out for a few hours this afternoon with her middle school friends. They've decided to alternate weeks with movie night on Friday one week and a Sunday afternoon gabfest the next. I think that one of the girls can't do things on Fridays, but I'm not sure.

Scott's asleep. At this point, I don't see a point in waking him at all until morning. He napped a little while Cordelia was out (he provided transportation both ways), but apart from that hour to hour and a half, he had been up for roughly twenty three hours when he lay down to sleep. I'll have to wake him for a little when I go to bed because I have to be able to see which medication bottles are which.

We went to Bob Evans for breakfast this morning after Scott got home and showered. After we got home from that, Scott did the grocery shopping while I started in on laundry. He did the library run after dropping Cordelia off at her friend's house.

Scott having had to work last night means that I still haven't tried taking two of the Halcion tablets to see how that affects my sleep. I'm not willing to do it unless he'll be there during the night and in the morning.

I wrote about 500 words last night. Sadly, I wrote it at the point when I should have been in bed and asleep, so I've been dragging all day. I keep looking at the floor and thinking about lying down there in spite of knowing how much doing that would hurt. I have no idea why my brain thinks the floor is more attractive than the couch. Maybe because I've tried the couch several times in the last two weeks?

We're going to try to figure out how to upgrade Cordelia's laptop. There are things she wants to do now that the machine is too old in terms of hardware to support, and we expect that high school will bring things she actually needs to do that need better hardware. If nothing else, she's taking digital photography later this year. I'm pretty sure we will have a hard time finding software for that that will work on a Macbook made in 2008.

Upgrading my laptop is going to have to wait. We still haven't paid off my current laptop or Cordelia's. We got them refurbished, so we didn't pay full price, but I'm not sure Scott's decision in that regard was necessarily wise because what he ended up getting was only a very little bit newer than what we used to have and stopped being able to advance in terms of OS within the first six months we had them. For me, it's less important because I mostly chat, do email, write, and browse the web. I don't stream much or play games. I don't need the latest bells and whistles in my word processor, not as long as other people can still open and read my documents if I share them.

Scott's thrilled at the idea of me not doing Yuletide. He says that all I talk about during the writing period is my story and that that makes him feel like I'm not actually present. I pointed out that I'm always thinking of stories and that I'm happier when I'm writing. I should have added that I just talk to him about the Yuletide stories because he often knows the fandoms and because they're almost never smut. I do 90% of my writing for any exchange/challenge at points when I'm alone, but my brain never stops churning with story ideas.

I need to try to find a chance to talk to him about this when Cordelia's not around. I feel like I don't have all that much that's mine and like he's saying I shouldn't have anything if it attracts attention. I'm pretty sure that's not what he means, but it's still hurtful and pisses me off.
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I've been steadily chipping away at my to-do list since Scott went to bed this morning. I think today's my best bet for dealing with phone calls and forms. Scott said that, since he'll be home during business hours this week, I could pass him a list of calls, too.

I've got about two hours before Cordelia gets home, and I'm trying to figure out my priorities. I have to find another black pen so that I can finish filling out the Aetna claim forms (I knocked my last one under the loveseat and am not quite desperate enough to try to move that to retrieve it). I have a non-urgent email and a non-urgent phone call. There is an urgent-ish call on Scott's list, and I maybe ought to make that one as it needs doing while Cordelia's not home.

Of course, what I really want to do is nap. I may just give up and do that.

I did a little bit of writing last night and realized why I haven't gotten much done recently. Cordelia's been glued to my side for considerable periods and turning up for that more or less at random during the time she's home. She reads whatever's showing on my laptop and rather disapproves of me writing fanfic because I'm old. She especially disapproves of me writing anything even vaguely sexual.

Scott and I drove into town this morning to return a book to Community. Cordelia claims she told me to take it back on Friday when I went in to withdraw her, but I don't remember that at all. At any rate, it took about ten minutes this morning, so it wasn't a big deal.

I need to talk to folks at Skyline about letting Cordelia sign herself in and out with me either calling or writing a note to authorize it. If she can do that, it would make appointments during school hours infinitely more possible from my side of things.

I discovered today that, while I can shut down the ringing of our landline phones, I can't shut down the ringing from the base unit/charger. I'm not sure what the point is of being able to mute ringing on the mobile bit if the base is just going to howl. The problem is that we have a phone in our bedroom, so Scott was awakened by a junk call around 10:00 this morning. We only have a landline at this point because it was cheaper to get cable and phone with the internet than to get the internet connection on its own. The 'landline' isn't exactly a landline, either, and stops working when we lose power, so it doesn't even give us that.
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I managed to get myself signed up to run events at UCon. A two hour Sentinels of the Multiverse game and a four hour rpg. The rpg plot is still very squishy in my head. I know where and how it starts, and I've got character ideas, but I still have to hammer out details.

I'm also waiting to hear from Cordelia how going to Skyline just for choir has worked. There was some stress about because the choir teacher never responded yesterday. That left Cordelia going to Skyline without a clear idea of what would happen. I don't know, at this point, if she'll be getting a ride in with someone or if she'll be rushing to catch the bus. I promised her that, if she misses the bus, I'll call Community to let them know that she'll be late.

After she gets to Community for the day, I'm probably going to try to nap. I have to meet Cordelia downtown after school's over. She has a 4:15 appointment down that way.

I woke this morning with a headache. Sugar and caffeine killed it, but it was fairly nasty before that. I'm pretty sure it's fallout from me not sleeping much Monday night and from me walking too far yesterday. (Cordelia's comment was, "Mom, you know that never ends well.")

My appointment at the sleep disorders clinic went pretty well. I saw a doctor rather than the PA I was expecting. I really have lost track of who I'm supposed to be seeing there. The doctor was pleased by my numbers as recorded by the c-PAP. I'm having a lot of 'episodes' during the period while I'm wearing the gear but not yet asleep. If I get up after an hour of being awake, the machine generally says I've had between 7 and 10 episodes in that time. By the next morning, it will give me an average between 1 and 2.5, depending on how long I used it and getting lower the longer I did, so I'm assuming that most of those are while I'm still awake with pretty much nothing while I'm sleeping. The doctor seemed to think that was the case too (the card recorded me having many events clustered early and then nothing much later, so).

The current mask/headgear is much better than the nasal pillows except for one thing. The strap around the back of my head that anchors everything won't stay. When I'm asleep, it gradually migrates up so that everything else starts to fall off. I have to manage to wake enough to move the strap back to where it's supposed to be. I will call Medequip and ask about it, but the doctor thought that they wouldn't have a solution. Her suggestion was a hat of some sort to provide more friction. Clips in my hair aren't an option because those will slide right out.

I took a cab to the appointment because I was just that tired. I had to take the bus home because the cab company said it would be an hour and a half, minimum. I was too tired to climb the hill from that bus route, so I went downtown to catch the bus that stops at the top of the hill. I ended up with at fifteen minute wait downtown. Cordelia was kind of worried that I wasn't home when she got there even though I texted her about it.
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Last night, I tried Halcion to help me get to sleep. My psychiatrist prescribed me fourteen 0.25 mg tablets with instructions to take between 1/2 tablet and two tablets. I took half a tablet and then got distracted for forty five minutes by an urgent email. I could tell the medication was affecting me because I was making more typos, but I didn't feel tired. About fifteen minutes after I sent the email, I took the other half of the tablet.

I slept until Scott's alarm six hours later. After I left Cordelia at the crosswalk, I went as far as the church to hack the portal there, but I didn't go further because I was really tired. I came home and went back to bed. I was interrupted twice, but I actually did sleep. I got up two minutes before my 10:00 alarm (to remind me to start making lunch). I'm still tired enough to be tempted to go back to sleep, but I think my brain is working, and I'm going to see if food helps any. Of course, using food to stay awake is a Bad Thing.

I think that, tonight, I'll stick with half a tablet and see how bad the hangover from that is. The sleepiness the next day is a known side effect, but it's not expected because the medication has a really short half-life, only two hours.

Yesterday was mostly given over to household chores (the cleaning lady came), Cordelia, and a beta read I promised to get done. Scott and Cordelia made a trip out to get more school supplies. I'm not sure where they went because the place we normally go to for that stuff was out of reach due to a police manhunt for a bank robber. According to MLive, the money he took had a tracker, and they knew he was on northbound 23. According to acquaintances who were out near where Scott normally get onto 23, both that street and 23 were parking lots.
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I took 1 mg of Lunesta last night and, within about fifteen minutes, actually felt more awake than I had been before I took it. I slept about the way I'd have expected to if I hadn't taken anything at all. I think it took about an hour after I took the medication for me to fall asleep, and I was up a couple of times during the night to use the bathroom. I also roused frequently in order to shift position (this is normal for me). I don't know if it's that the dosage is insufficient or if Lunesta simply isn't going to help. I really wish that I'd been able to try it sooner so that I could have talked to my doctor before Monday night which will be a make or break thing.

Scott, knowing Murphy's Law as it applies to me and medications, was at least half expecting it to make me manic. (It has happened before with things that are normally sedating.) It didn't do that, but it didn't do anything even remotely helpful, either.

Ambien is not a viable option for me or we'd have tried that first. My genetic profile turned up potentially major problems with me taking it, but there weren't any known contraindications there for Lunesta. I can't take melatonin because it gives me headaches that last for days (though it does improve my sleep). Benadryl doesn't make me sleepy.

I got very achy as the day went on yesterday, and I'm still that way this morning. I'm at the levels of resting pain that I had when I was working. I know, now, that it's a problem of anxiety primarily and of sleep quality secondarily. Sadly, that doesn't help me do anything about it because I know from experience that there's not anything I can take that will decrease the pain. I'm finding it harder to deal with now because I'm no longer used to it as normal.

I've just gone out as a last minute pinch hit for [personal profile] captiveaudience. I'm sad about that but not hugely surprised since I could see that I hadn't gotten a story yet. The exchange has had some problems finding pinch hitters, mostly because almost nobody is following it but the participants (between twenty and twenty five people signed up). I'm not sure how likely it is that pinch hitters will be found for these last two. My fandoms are almost all old or tiny, so my bet now is that I'll end up either with a story for The Flash (TV 2014) or for Original Work, with the former more likely because of the amount of work needed to do the latter well. (I also requested Weiss Kreuz, The Pretender, Chronicles of Amber, and Princess Tutu. I would not expect to match on any of those now.)

The other pinch hit is looking for Teen Wolf, Merlin, Agents of SHIELD, Fairy Tales, or Red Eye (2005). I've not heard of that last fandom before.
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I feel about as tired now as I did when I went to bed. I'm a bit more alert and considerably less achy, but I still feel exhausted. I stayed up until midnight, and I got up about 9:00. I tried last night without either Ativan or Lunesta (and skipped the Zyrtec, going back to the Claritin instead). Potential medical TMI )

I'm also trying to find someone we know locally who might want the bottle of Zyrtec. Scott uses Allegra, and I really can't use the remaining 69 pills in the bottle. Scott got cranky and told me that he hadn't realized this was a test of whether or not I could take the stuff, that he wouldn't have bought the big, $25 bottle if he'd realized. I'm pretty sure that exactly what I said to him was, "My doctor wants me to try Zyrtec instead of Claritin. Please buy some." Well, exactly but with the doctor's name in place of 'my doctor.' He does the shopping, so he knows that I've been taking Claritin for years without trying anything else.

I can only assume that he's as exhausted as I am. He's working really long days, and family stuff (I'll talk about that under lock) is getting stressful enough that being at home isn't downtime.

Last night, some folks from the other side in Ingress came through and took down all of the science center portals. I'm going to try to haul myself over there to take them back, but the so, so tired side of things may win. I'm told by other players on our side that this was likely retaliation for people on our side of things having started to regularly go and take down certain areas where these players keep building things up. Which makes sense, but I'm still irritated that it happened while Scott was asleep (he's working 3 a.m. to 3 p.m. today) and couldn't help me try to hold onto anything.

I'm not happy with my Captive Audience story. I think it needs another 5000 to 10000 words in order to really be complete, but I don't have the time for it before the deadline, so I'm trying to get what I've got to the point that it's acceptable to post. If all goes well, I'll have time for editing and, possibly, expansion next week, after Cordelia starts school and before the reveal, but I really need a bus draft. Right at the moment, I'm dithering about whether or not to chapter the dratted thing. The natural breaks don't really lend themselves to equal chapters. There'd be one three times longer than the next longest. I thought there was a break in the middle of it, but at that point, each paragraph depends on the preceding one in order to make sense, so a chapter break would damage the flow.

I'm in less of a hurry about the tags and the blurb.
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I over did things yesterday. After I left Medequip at about 11:20, I walked for a bit more than an hour. This was more tiring than it would normally be because I had my c-PAP, my purse, and a bag with a book and my full water bottle. The c-PAP was mostly willing to stay hanging from my shoulder, but the other two kept slipping down. I have no idea how far I walked (Scott has been promising me a fit-bit equivalent for over a year. He says 'real soon,' but I don't believe him) because Ingress is very inexact on that. It counts in kilometer increments and includes any distance registered by the GPS as being at a possible walking pace rather than counting steps.

I was lucky in that a bus to downtown arrived less than two minutes after I got to the stop and that it got me downtown at a time when I didn't need to wait for the bus home.

I was so tired by the time I got home, though, that I didn't move much for the rest of the day.

I'm progressing on my Captive Audience story again. It's at 10K words now, and I have no idea how to end it or even exactly what I need to have happen first. I don't think I have Lima or Stockholm syndrome yet. It's very clearly going to happen, but it hasn't yet. I should have remembered that, while I like writing this sort of thing, I can't write it short. I have to have the story ready to post tomorrow. I fear that will mean no beta read (I may not even have the time to go over it for typos. I usually need a week between finishing writing and being able to see typos).

I'm not entirely sure that I can find the end of the damned story before the deadline.

I tried taking Zyrtec last night instead of Claritin (my primary care doctor suggested it). I've been a groggy zombie today, so I'm inclined to got back to Claritin. She thought Zyrtec might be more effective than the Claritin has been in dealing with the occasional problems I've been having with sinus irritation from the c-PAP. The other-- and more major thing-- against continuing to take the Zyrtec is that it's apparently a very bad combination with Lunesta. I told my pcp that I was likely to take Lunesta, but I'm not sure I mentioned the Zyrtec to my psychiatrist the next day, and my pcp pretty clearly wanted me to be taking something else than Lunesta. I think she somehow didn't understand that things that make me more tired and less able to think during the day are not things I will continue to take, not unless stopping will kill me.

My hope is to try the Lunesta at a very low dose tonight and see how it affects me.

The new c-PAP mask is much more comfortable and less anxiety inducing than the old one. The hose attaches at the top of my head now, so I don't have to try to hold onto it in order to keep the bit on my nose from shifting to a point that I can't breathe properly. The part that goes over my nose just covers the whole thing instead of needing to be placed with the right bits in each nostril. I guess we'll see how it goes. I'm pretty sure I slept better last night than I have any other time with a c-PAP.
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I took a cab to UHS yesterday because it was raining. I took the bus home even though it was still raining (and raining harder). Part of that was that I wanted to get in a bit of a walk, even if it did mean getting wet.

Ingress is challenging right now because I no longer have the mid-range resonators that are hardest to get (at least for me). I can get lvl 1 and lvl 2, but 3-6 are harder.

Medical stuff-- pain, fatigue, medication, and food )
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I actually managed to get my sister on the phone yesterday for her birthday. I can't remember the last time I called her and didn't end up with her voice mail. She was talking to her son off and on during the conversation (he's four or five years younger than Cordelia), telling him what to do to get their dog to do what he wanted. The first couple of comments in that direction were confusing because they didn't relate to what we were talking about. I'm used to talking to her when she's alone.

She told me that she has found a decent viola that's the right size for Cordelia. One of my sister's regulars at the frame shop she manages collects and refurbishes used string instruments, and she had asked him to keep an eye out for a reasonable viola in Cordelia's size and at a price that we could afford. The instrument in question is half an inch larger than the one Cordelia's been renting and doesn't include a bow, but both Cordelia and the instrument guy feel that half an inch shouldn't be a problem. My sister is paying for the viola and for shipping (she says it's to make up for years of missed birthdays and Christmas presents. I pointed out that she's sent more in that direction than our parents have).

At any rate, returning the rented viola will save us about $18 a month. Cordelia finds playing soothing and has been seeking out music online so that she can try new to her pieces. I think that she will keep playing even without taking orchestra. My sister says that the guy she's dealing with assures her that this is a good quality viola and would be good for taking orchestra again if Cordelia decides that she wants to do that.

I will probably return the viola to Shar when I go to Medequip for the c-PAP related stuff, assuming I can do that this week. They're relatively near each other. I'm not sure it's a distance I'd find walkable, but they're on the same street. I figure I can put my c-PAP into a backpack and carry the viola and gear in my hands.

Part of me wants very much to go back to bed now that Cordelia's off at camp, but I should do laundry, and I'm waiting for a couple of phone calls. Of course, falling asleep would pretty much guarantee the calls coming through, right? I've got about two and a half hours now when sleep would be possible. Later on, it won't be.
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I ended up taking a cab down to check in for the Anomaly because I missed the bus I meant to take and then wasn't likely to make the next bus. I asked in the Slack channel if anyone could give me a ride, but no one answered before the cab came.

I can't actually say that I enjoyed the Anomaly. It wasn't horrible or anything. It just wasn't fun. I think that it would have been if I'd been with people I knew. As it was, I ended up listening to a lot of conversations that I couldn't contribute to because I vehemently disagreed with the positions everyone else agreed on (parenting issues, mostly). Our team captain did a good job, but the ops folks didn't hold to what they'd promised us-- Our group was supposed to stay within a two block area, but they marched us all over.

Scott and Cordelia picked me up about an hour and a half before the thing ended. I was ready to drop. I left a lot of my gear with the group, so I now really, really need to get out and hack portals in order to replenish things. I don't know that that's going to happen unless I nag Scott over it. Maybe if I go with him for grocery shopping, he'll be willing to trade a bit of driving around so I can hack things. Of course, the place I'd like to go is a bit of a drive and requires a lot of getting out of the car and walking.

Scott and Cordelia went out for ice cream after dinner, but I was too tired to manage it. I ended up sleeping very badly last night. I had stress related reflux which calmed after I took an Ativan but still cost me an hour of sleep. I only managed the c-PAP for a couple of hours before I started feeling like the air flow was choking me. I was up and down a lot. I really, really want a nap now. I just don't know that I have either the time or the ability to relax enough to sleep.

I had a headache when I got up this morning, so I experimented-- I had one hard candy to see if sugar would help. That hard candy almost entirely killed the headache, so I'm now almost entirely sure that what helps my morning headaches is the sugar content of my morning tea/coffee rather than the caffeine content. That's actually bad news because I'm supposed to be trying to cut the sugar.

I'll be seeing my primary care doctor tomorrow, so I need to go back through the last few months of this journal to see the patterns that I want to discuss with her. I'll see my psychiatrist on Tuesday.

Incomplete list of things to discuss with my doctor )
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Wednesday evening, most people from our normal game group couldn't attend, so we ended up with one friend and his two kids. We got pizza. The local Cottage Inn wasn't doing online ordering, and we needed both delivery and the option to pay by credit card, so we went with Marco's instead. I was not pleased with their online order system. It worked well enough that we got pizza (what we ordered even), but there wasn't an option for tipping online, and it never sent me an order confirmation email in spite of me going through the email address confirmation process twice. They also don't offer the things we usually would order, no spinach, no broccoli (nothing green except various types of peppers), no sauce variants beyond tomato and 'white' (with no definition of what they meant by white sauce).

I didn't participate in the game playing so that they'd have more options (I can only manage fully cooperative games). They played Flashpoint (which I could have played, but I was dealing with ordering the pizza) and Robo Rally. Scott offered to loan them his copy of Robo Rally because he doesn't get many opportunities to play.

Scott's sister and her daughter got here a little before noon yesterday. Cordelia's volunteer shift ended early, so she was done before they arrived and had to wait for us to get downtown. Our niece had expressed interest in Korean barbecue, and I found a place about three blocks from the library. We didn't end up eating there, though. Instead, we went to the place next door that offered a variety of noodle dishes for considerably less money and a much shorter wait (both places had the same name, just with different subtitles, so I assume they're owned by the same people).

The food was okay, but I found the table and seating uncomfortable. We were on backless stools that were tall enough that I had to work at getting seated (I'm 5'2"). Service was prompt though.

After the meal, we went across the street to Dawn Treader, a used book store. This was a revelation for Cordelia because, although she's been in used book stores before, she never quite connected them as a thing to find locally or as a place that might have books of interest to her. We got her three books she wanted very much for less than half what they'd have cost new. I picked up a paperback that I intend to send to a friend who might enjoy it.

We took a little detour on the way back to the car to walk along the street where our nephew will be staying for part of the fall semester. His mother didn't know which specific house it would be, but we were able to narrow it down to a single block, so she took pictures of the houses so that she can ask him. He'll be staying with friends for two or three nights a week, rent free (which surprises me) and taking classes at Washtenaw Community College. In January, he'll start at Michigan State University.

I strongly recommended that he make use of the city bus system. Parking near where he'll be staying is extremely difficult and expensive. If he parks near us, he can get a bus to where he'll be staying in under fifteen minutes, and there are regular buses out to WCC (which also service a hospital out there and so are likely to keep running on the weekend as well. I just haven't checked yet). It's also possible he might be able to park at WCC and then use the bus. I'm not sure of WCC parking regulations/limitations, but they're not located near much of anything else, so I suspect they're likely to be considerable less stringent than those in downtown Ann Arbor.

We considered going to Skyline to walk Cordelia's classes, but the building was closed so that they could wax the floors. I don't know if they're open today for that to be an option. I should probably look into it. Next week, Cordelia will be volunteering at the science center camp Monday through Thursday, and I think there's something else going on that Friday.

I also ought to try to get out to do some Ingress in the hope of getting gear I need for tomorrow, but I'm still very tired. I woke much earlier than I wanted to because my left elbow, the one with the tendinitis, was hurting a lot. It had been fine when I went to bed, so I have no idea what happened. I keep telling myself that I'll go back to bed soon, but it's 11:00, and I haven't (largely because of IBS issues). Cordelia's up now, so it will be harder.

There are pre-Anomaly Ingress gatherings in town today. I'd like to go, but I simply can't face it right now. I need sleep more, and I need my digestive system to calm down. I guess it's crackers, plain potatoes, white rice, etc. for the rest of the day. These are terrible for my blood sugar but reliably make my digestive system calm down. I can't tell if today's problem is purely (or even mostly) stress or if it's something from lunch yesterday or due to the handful of sugar snap peas I had last night.

I'm also having agoraphobia issues around the Anomaly now that Scott can't be there. I'm determined to go, but it's going to be really, really hard. All the people I know who are going will be on different teams than I am (and there are reasons I can't join them-- my stamina/mobility issues primarily but also some interpersonal conflicts and not wanting to abandon my current team which only has six people, some of whom may not actually show up).

I'm still occasionally not getting AO3 comments emailed to me. So far, it's only two comments out of dozens, but... I've checked every folder for that Gmail address (and every folder for my email on my laptop) with no joy. This includes the spam folder. I asked AO3 about it and pretty much got a 'not our problem' response. If it's not that messages are going to the spam folder, they've got no fix for it. So my recourse is to check my AO3 inbox regularly to try to catch things that don't get mailed to me. This doesn't help if I'm missing subscription notices, but at least I won't be unintentionally ignoring comment on my fics (there are a few I'm ignoring deliberately for one reason or another).
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I just posted the final chapter in my Amber story We Are Where We Began. It's part of my House of Sulfur and Mercury series. That series has sprouted about eight different AUs. I was going to keep this story going, but I realized that, if I did, I would never actually find an ending because the arc in this one isn't something that ends except in death. That is, there's never going to be a magical point where I can say that my POV character is 100% recovered and will have puppies and rainbows for all the rest of his life.

Cordelia and I got up at 8:00 this morning. I stayed up after she left because I needed to get a lot of things done. I got the tidying dealt with and some of the emails and bureaucratic stuff, too, but there's a lot getting moved to tomorrow's to-do list now. Tomorrow's kind of empty. I ought to try to get out to hack portals and try to get the required Ingress gear for Saturday, but I'm pretty exhausted. I need some way to get to some level 8 portals, and that requires a car and a driver and a lot of time to wander.

I'll write about our afternoon with Scott's sister and her daughter in tomorrow's post. I want to go to bed now.
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Scott and I set out about 9:30, and we got home with Cordelia a bit after 8:00. It was a really long drive. Scott and I listened to podcasts and an audiobook on the way up. The Hamilton soundtrack played the entire way back because Cordelia finds it soothing and because Scott and Cordelia both sing along with the whole thing.

We got to the area near Interlochen about an hour before we were to pick Cordelia up, so we got lunch at the only restaurant we could find. It wasn't terrible. It also wasn't great. I finished my meal still feeling hungry and without any options for more food.

The Interlochen campus is really nice. I'd have liked to look around more (and the unclaimed Ingress portals only had a little bit to do with it), but Cordelia was really eager to get out of there.

Scott's parents invited us to stop by on our way home, and we did. The timing worked out that we arrived a little after 6:00, so they fed us dinner-- chicken, asparagus, mashed potatoes, and salad.

I dropped my Ativan tablet last night and couldn't find it (those things are tiny!), so I slept without it. I was exhausted enough that I slept soundly until Scott's alarm. After he got up, I didn't get back to sleep until he left. That wasn't because of him. It was me feeling too warm then too cold then having my neck hurt then... Well, on and on.

My allergy trouble hasn't come back. I'm hoping it won't, but the cleaning lady coming today may set me off again because the various cleaning products cause me problems breathing (one of the big reasons we have her come in).
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I slept pretty badly last night. I was still sneezing and all that, so I couldn't use the c-PAP. I seem to be doing better in that regard this morning, but I woke when the Benadryl wore off in the middle of the night.

Our current best guess as to the problem is a combination of dust, ragweed, and the c-PAP. The dust and ragweed wouldn't normally give me this much trouble, not at the levels they've been at. I think that my sinuses have been irritated by the c-PAP and so are more reactive to other things. I haven't had a summer this bad for allergies since I was in high school.

All of my plans for the week, such as they were, have been shot to hell. They mainly consisted of writing and watching DVDs that can't be renewed (I have about fifty hours of lectures on DVD that can't be renewed) and more writing.

We have a very long day ahead of us as we'll be heading up to Interlochen to bring Cordelia home. (There are reasons for this that I'm not willing to go into in a public post.) It's been a hard decision, and I still need to make some phone calls about it. Part of me wants to go back to bed and to send Scott on his own, but that would be unfair to him. He could do it. He would, too, if it was necessary, but I can go.

We plan to get on the road as soon as we're both dressed and both have had breakfast.
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I'll be going to Medequip tomorrow to try on some different masks. The idea is to find something that won't irritate my sinuses to the point of days of sneezing. The current one doesn't provoke that all of the time.

I want to nap, but my sinuses are still in rebellion. I'm not sure if it's the c-PAP or the ragweed or the dust from cleaning. It might be all three. I used my neti pot (I don't very often, just when I'm worried that something like dust or pollen might be setting me off).

The orientation session last night was a bit overwhelming. Too many people, no AC, and lots of stairs.

All of the staff members specified their pronouns. None of them used anything but the he set or the she set, but I'm glad they did it because it's entirely possible that there were kids in the audience who needed reassurance that their pronouns will be respected.

We found someone who wants the Legos that I washed/bleached on Sunday. Scott's sister's SIL's church can use them. She's willing to pick them up. We still have a few other things to give away/donate.

My mother has sent me a url for the parts we need to repair the love seat and chair in the basement. I just need to measure the pieces of the support straps we've still got to make sure we order the right things. I don't know how long it will be before Scott has time to do the work, but getting the parts is the first step.

I'm really done in. If you've sent me something in last few days that requires thought, I might manage it tomorrow, but it's not going to happen today.
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I wore myself out completely yesterday, what with dealing with spraying Cordelia's clothes and sorting the crap from the basement. I had to ask Scott to go get me a Wendy's burger in order to be able to think and to stave off a headache that was heading migraine-wards. Two loads of laundry got done, too, but Scott and Cordelia did parts of that.

Scott went out to the Games Library Day in Ypsilanti. I had to ask him to leave early because I used up all of the anti-tick spray for Cordelia's clothing before I got the sweatshirt and the single pair of long pants she's taking. I got all of the t-shirts and shorts.

I started sneezing last night around 9 p.m. and haven't really stopped. I wasn't able to use the c-PAP because of it. I've got the AC cranked just in case it's a ragweed thing (which it might be because it's been cool enough recently for the AC not to run).

We have the meeting for Cordelia's camp orientation tonight at 6:00. I hope there will be signs because telling us to meet 'in the choir room' isn't actually much help with a building that size that none of us know. Cordelia and I have been searching desperately for a set of dress shoes that fit her. We have a single shoe from two different sets (one of which she swears had both shoes in her suitcase two days ago). The second available shoe is navy instead of the required black but will probably pass well enough if I can find the other.

I got a germ of an idea for my UCon game scenario last night, but I'm not sure yet what direction to take it. I'm going to call it a 'home rules' system, though, probably with a note that I'll be mostly using percentile dice.

I have my Darkest Night assignment. I'm going to have to think about it for a little while. I'm confident I can write the fandom and make it dark. I'm just not sure I can use more than one of the freeforms (this is a request that came in after I signed up and that I was sufficiently comfortable with not to run to change my sign up. If it had been there before, I might have tried to avoid it, but I also might not have). Strictly speaking, I only have to use one freeform, but... I like to do better than that.

Given that my Captive Audience story is stalled, I'll be focusing on getting that moving again before I do anything else. I was right that I did almost no writing last week while Scott was home. I think it came to 700 words, all on Saturday right at bedtime.

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