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Scott is working twelve hours today, so we will have to do all of our errands tomorrow afternoon. It looks, at this point, like a trip to the Apple Store won’t be necessary. I’m keeping my fingers crossed, but my laptop’s not feeling hot any more. Scott had me use Disk Utility to scan my hard drive, just in case it was failing, but Disk Utility thinks everything is perfectly fine. For whatever that’s worth.

I woke today with a headache again. I had it at 7:00 but didn’t try to do anything about it except to go back to sleep. It was worse when I actually got up a bit after 9:00. I’ve had coffee, food, and naproxen, and the headache has retreated to the point where it no longer exactly hurts. It’s still there, but it’s not as awful.

I’m thinking, at this point, that I do need to talk to either my primary care doctor or my psychiatrist about the headache. Nine days out of the last ten, I’ve woken with a headache, and that’s not normal for me. It could be anxiety/stress, but if it is, it’s from a source I’m not aware of.

It could be hormonal, I suppose, but I really, really hope it’s not because, if it is, I’m SOL in terms of options beyond what I’m already doing. All the usual possibilities in that direction make the damned tumor more likely to come back in one way or another. I still haven’t had a period since having the IUD removed at the end of June, so I really have no idea. Of course, if this is hormonal, then I have to talk to the oncologist and the gynecologist, too. I don’t, unfortunately, have a method for communicating with all four doctors at one time.

My sleep has definitely not been right at all points in the last ten days, but good sleep doesn’t seem to help even if bad sleep hurts. I have tried things like changing my pillow, just in case the problem lies in that direction.

I’ve stalled out on the thing I’ve been writing because I have to make decisions about exactly who I think each of the characters is and what they want. It’s one of those bits of closing down options so that I can find the end of the story. I always find that bit difficult when I can see a bunch of different and interesting paths forward. I think part of it is me not being sure how long I want the story to be. If I’m going to write another 10000 words and then figure out an ending, that’s different from trying to end it in the next 2000 or 3000 words. I think I could do either. I’m not bored with the story, but I worry that a not-me reader would be.

Apparently, I spent a lot more money last month than I thought I did. I’ve spent a good bit so far this month, too, so I’m going to have to pretty much not spend anything for a while unless it’s absolutely necessary. Not even if things on my Amazon wishlist suddenly plummet in price. Not even if I see something I really, really want. So, yes on the haircuts because it’s been eighteen months at least for me and Cordelia. Yes on Cordelia’s required for school gym shoes. No on books, CDs, eating out, cabs, etc.

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I took a look at my credit card bill for last month. It includes a bunch of stuff that I thought would be on the next bill, so it’s not nearly as bad as I was thinking it was, based on what Scott said. I think I’ve only spent about $30 on my card that wasn’t reflected on that bill; I was thinking that there was at least another $150 pending. I probably ought to check the bill against my specific records of what I bought on Amazon, just to be sure that I know what everything was. There are a lot of items there, and I didn’t think I bought that many different things.

I have emailed my primary care doctor and my psychiatrist about the headaches. I don’t expect I’ll hear back until some time in the middle of next week.

I’ve added about forty words to my fic and edited a couple of bits that weren’t as clear as I wanted them to be. I can’t seem to focus enough to write at the moment, so I’m thinking seriously about lying down for a while. I ought to try to read some library books that are due tomorrow, but I don’t think I can do that either.