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the_rckLast Wednesday was my last day working in the school library for this school year. The kids didn't check out books then. I was there to check books in and to shelve them. There wasn't really a lot for me to do, and there would be even less next week, so I'm just not going. I can't justify spending three hours at school in order to do fifteen minutes (if that!) of work shelving whatever overdue books the kids bring in. I'll probably check with the librarian on Thursday morning, when I drop Delia off at school, to see if there's a lot of shelving. If there is, I can offer to help with it then.
Speaking of walking Delia to school-- She's started asking if she can walk to school by herself. She keeps saying she's going to and then deciding that she wants me after all. I'm willing to let her go by herself because it isn't far. She's eight, and there's a crossing guard at the only street she needs to cross (I did tell her to come back and get me if he wasn't there). I don't know if she'll walk herself to school before the end of the year. Part of me is hoping she won't, and part of me is hoping she will.
Of course, when Delia starts walking to and from school on her own, I'll be going out of the house a lot less. Walking her means that I have to get my act together and make myself leave the house twice a day. I worry that, lacking that routine, it will be harder for me to leave the house. The agoraphobia makes going out a challenge anyway.
For the last couple of months, I've been taking Wellbutrin in addition to Geodon. My psychiatrist is hoping that they'll work together to help me. We started at a very low dose for the first month, just to watch for side effects. I didn't have any, so we've increased the dose. I'm not sure if this is where I'm supposed to stay. I suspect so because the scrip has four refills, but I'm not sure. I can't say that I think the Wellbutrin is doing anything; I'm not sure it's not, but I can't seem to tell.
I'm still struggling with my Finishathon story. I've started it three times. The first two just didn't work. I think the third start will go somewhere-- I've got about five paragraphs this time. It's going to be difficult to find Aslan's voice, I think, and Frank and Helen (the first king and queen of Narnia) have very little development in canon. I'm more interested in Helen, or Nellie as Frank calls her. She has one line in The Magician's Nephew. I want to figure out who she is and what suddenly being transplanted to Narnia means for her. She and Frank have left everything they know behind.
Speaking of walking Delia to school-- She's started asking if she can walk to school by herself. She keeps saying she's going to and then deciding that she wants me after all. I'm willing to let her go by herself because it isn't far. She's eight, and there's a crossing guard at the only street she needs to cross (I did tell her to come back and get me if he wasn't there). I don't know if she'll walk herself to school before the end of the year. Part of me is hoping she won't, and part of me is hoping she will.
Of course, when Delia starts walking to and from school on her own, I'll be going out of the house a lot less. Walking her means that I have to get my act together and make myself leave the house twice a day. I worry that, lacking that routine, it will be harder for me to leave the house. The agoraphobia makes going out a challenge anyway.
For the last couple of months, I've been taking Wellbutrin in addition to Geodon. My psychiatrist is hoping that they'll work together to help me. We started at a very low dose for the first month, just to watch for side effects. I didn't have any, so we've increased the dose. I'm not sure if this is where I'm supposed to stay. I suspect so because the scrip has four refills, but I'm not sure. I can't say that I think the Wellbutrin is doing anything; I'm not sure it's not, but I can't seem to tell.
I'm still struggling with my Finishathon story. I've started it three times. The first two just didn't work. I think the third start will go somewhere-- I've got about five paragraphs this time. It's going to be difficult to find Aslan's voice, I think, and Frank and Helen (the first king and queen of Narnia) have very little development in canon. I'm more interested in Helen, or Nellie as Frank calls her. She has one line in The Magician's Nephew. I want to figure out who she is and what suddenly being transplanted to Narnia means for her. She and Frank have left everything they know behind.
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Date: 2011-06-05 03:27 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-06-05 04:56 pm (UTC)I'm hopeful that Delia and I will find new routines. She hasn't outgrown occasional cuddling yet (I'm not looking forward to when she does).
Thanks for the good wishes!