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Aug. 25th, 2009 10:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
the_rckThe exhaustion pretty definitely relates to the air outside right now. When I came home from my appointment, I was dead tired. A sinus wash and an hour inside helped immensely.
My psychiatrist was inclined to tinker with my meds in an effort to improve things. I declined. Increasing the Geodon last time left me with a few days of fatigue, and playing with the Provigil runs the risk of hitting the point where my blood pressure gets iffy. I can't deal with either right now.
My anxiety levels are still running high. I'm having to fight a conviction that the world will implode if I don't get rid of 90% of our possessions. We have major clutter, but even 50% would be overkill. I'm taking this fear as a manifestation of other things, but it's still wearing on me.
Cordelia's soccer team for this fall will be practicing at the same place as last spring. I'm not thrilled. I'm trying to figure out how to get there if I can't get rides reliably. Fall is a difficult time for overtime for Scott's job, so I can't rely on him. There are three girls from Cordelia's school on the team. I'll be asking all of their families for help, starting with the one I actually know.
Two of Cordelia's friends will be at other schools this fall. I'm regretting that because those were the two she seemed to have the best time playing with last year. I'm sure she'll have fun with other girls at school and will make new friends. If nothing else, there'll be a lot of girls to choose from-- All the first graders in the school are going to be in one big class with two teachers.
My mother has started looking at Scott's family tree. Genealogy is a hobby of hers, and she's thinking that Cordelia might want to know all of this some day. She recently e-mailed me to say that there's a Cordelia in the family tree on that side, too. Scott's father's father's mother had Cordelia as a middle name. That makes it even more of family name, so I can point at two different sources when people ask where we got it from.
I need to call my grandmother to get a few dates for Papa's part of the family. Mom's not entirely optimistic about her chances of tracing them in the U.K. She's not willing to spend money on it and isn't sure that she'll find anything reliable in the free online resources. She has fairly high standards for what she considers adequate documentation to trace family connections.
My psychiatrist was inclined to tinker with my meds in an effort to improve things. I declined. Increasing the Geodon last time left me with a few days of fatigue, and playing with the Provigil runs the risk of hitting the point where my blood pressure gets iffy. I can't deal with either right now.
My anxiety levels are still running high. I'm having to fight a conviction that the world will implode if I don't get rid of 90% of our possessions. We have major clutter, but even 50% would be overkill. I'm taking this fear as a manifestation of other things, but it's still wearing on me.
Cordelia's soccer team for this fall will be practicing at the same place as last spring. I'm not thrilled. I'm trying to figure out how to get there if I can't get rides reliably. Fall is a difficult time for overtime for Scott's job, so I can't rely on him. There are three girls from Cordelia's school on the team. I'll be asking all of their families for help, starting with the one I actually know.
Two of Cordelia's friends will be at other schools this fall. I'm regretting that because those were the two she seemed to have the best time playing with last year. I'm sure she'll have fun with other girls at school and will make new friends. If nothing else, there'll be a lot of girls to choose from-- All the first graders in the school are going to be in one big class with two teachers.
My mother has started looking at Scott's family tree. Genealogy is a hobby of hers, and she's thinking that Cordelia might want to know all of this some day. She recently e-mailed me to say that there's a Cordelia in the family tree on that side, too. Scott's father's father's mother had Cordelia as a middle name. That makes it even more of family name, so I can point at two different sources when people ask where we got it from.
I need to call my grandmother to get a few dates for Papa's part of the family. Mom's not entirely optimistic about her chances of tracing them in the U.K. She's not willing to spend money on it and isn't sure that she'll find anything reliable in the free online resources. She has fairly high standards for what she considers adequate documentation to trace family connections.
