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[the_rck]

I have officially defaulted on Darkest Night. I realized that things with Cordelia aren't going to get better at all for a while-- weeks at best and quite possibly months-- and that I haven't been able to write all week because of it. Even if I do write more this month, I'm about 85% sure I couldn't write the things requested in my assignment. Not right now.

I feel bad because I feel like I'm letting myself down, but I think that, realistically, I can't do it. Better to default with twenty days to the deadline so that the pinch hitter has more time to work. Given the requested fandoms, I don't expect finding a pinch hitter to be that difficult.

I'm still going to nominate for Yuletide and then make the call about signing up later.

Comments

[scribblemoose]

Looking after yourself and your family is never letting yourself down. *hugs*

[the_rck]

::hugs back:: I know that, but... I also feel like I should have managed somehow. That 'should' is a terrible thing. It seems to be an expectation on my part that I'm somehow superhuman and capable of doing all the things.

[lunabee34]

*hugs*

[the_rck]

::hugs back::

[wendelah1]

A hard call, but it was the right choice.

[the_rck]

Thanks for the support.

[komadori]

Defaulting is always hard, but you did what was best for you. I've tried to write for several exchanges while dealing with anxiety/depression, and I've had to default more times than I'd like to remember. There's always a next time, though.

[the_rck]

I was badly matched for this recipient anyway, so maybe they'll get someone who can write what they want and do it well.

Thanks for the support.