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Apr. 7th, 2018 09:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
the_rckScott got another middle of the night call around 2:30 this morning. I need to make him bring his cell phone into the bedroom and have them call that. It will still wake me, but if they call the landline, that's on my side of the bed, so I have to sit up to reach it and then talk. They only call if there's something that's happened that means that a line will be down for 4+ hours or something else has happened that will create similarly lengthy delays. I think the idea is that Scott will tell them something else to work on if there is something.
Last night, I took off my c-PAP when the call came. I'm not sure why. Maybe I thought I needed to in order to answer the phone or maybe I got up to visit the bathroom. I can't recall. I just know that I didn't put it back on again.
I woke with a headache. I'm pretty sure that I felt it growing even while I was asleep and dreaming. Black tea and breakfast helped a lot. I just feel exhausted now. I also used my neti pot just in case it was mostly sinus. That didn't feel like it helped at all, but I suppose it might have since it's been an hour now.
I was worried that it was a migraine because I seem to have kept the wrong packaging for my Amerge prescription. The box I have is for an expired prescription, and I know I got a renewal in January or February. At least... I think I did. December through February is all really not very clear in my memory. I have one Amerge tablet left, and I need to call the pharmacy to see if I have a current prescription for that. It's a phone call that can't go through the automated refill system, so I've been putting it off and putting it off.
I'm pretty sure that there's a tension component here, too, because I've got a week to finish this exchange fic and am not making much progress on it. Part of that is that I want to write other things; part of that is that I need a sex scene for the fic to fit the exchange parameters. The story really wants to fade to black, so I fear the sex will be entirely tacked on and emotionally unsatisfying. I've got a mental thumbtack at the line where I think it should have ended. I can't put the sex earlier in the story because the rest of the story is all set up to get the characters to the point where they want to.
At any rate, this close to a deadline, I sometimes start getting weekend stress headaches if things aren't flowing. In this case, it's particularly likely because Scott and Cordelia really want my attention on family stuff today and tomorrow. That's going to be like a tightening screw as the moments slip away. If I could just get myself to focus and write this scene, I'd be in much better shape.
When I was on a different set of meds, this level of stress is when I'd have a wine cooler and have that be enough to let my body relax enough so that I could write. I used to have one or two a day for the 3-4 days leading up to running a LARP because that was the only way to avoid incapacitating headaches (which tended to get worse and worse as the deadline got closer with things not yet done because the headache wouldn't let me).
I signed up for![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
intoabar. It's not an exchange, so I won't feel quite the same pressure about needing to wedge the story into a certain sort of box. It's a challenge that involves picking a character from one canon and then listing up to four other canons one's willing to write. The moderators will randomly assign a character from one of those others to meet my selected character in a bar (or other public hang out sort of place. Given that many characters in my other fandoms are underage, I don't know that a bar will make sense. I'll see who I get).
I took Brad Crawford from Weiss Kreuz for my character and offered The Pretender, Phineas and Ferb, The Pretender, and Archer's Goon - Diana Wynne Jones for the other fandoms. Crawford's kind of a cheat because he's not very likely to meet someone accidentally. Whatever he's actually up to will give me a plot of sorts.
I'm not signing up forfandom5k or nightonficmountain. I'm still on the fence about notprimetime. I will consider treating or pinch hitting for all three. I'm eying polytrolley because someone nominated Weiss Kreuz, but I'm not so interested in offering other fandoms there, so treating might be a better idea. I'll track the requests to see if I change my mind.
ETA: Okay, I still have the edges of something migraine-related. Scott's frying onions, and I really feel sick from the smell.
Last night, I took off my c-PAP when the call came. I'm not sure why. Maybe I thought I needed to in order to answer the phone or maybe I got up to visit the bathroom. I can't recall. I just know that I didn't put it back on again.
I woke with a headache. I'm pretty sure that I felt it growing even while I was asleep and dreaming. Black tea and breakfast helped a lot. I just feel exhausted now. I also used my neti pot just in case it was mostly sinus. That didn't feel like it helped at all, but I suppose it might have since it's been an hour now.
I was worried that it was a migraine because I seem to have kept the wrong packaging for my Amerge prescription. The box I have is for an expired prescription, and I know I got a renewal in January or February. At least... I think I did. December through February is all really not very clear in my memory. I have one Amerge tablet left, and I need to call the pharmacy to see if I have a current prescription for that. It's a phone call that can't go through the automated refill system, so I've been putting it off and putting it off.
I'm pretty sure that there's a tension component here, too, because I've got a week to finish this exchange fic and am not making much progress on it. Part of that is that I want to write other things; part of that is that I need a sex scene for the fic to fit the exchange parameters. The story really wants to fade to black, so I fear the sex will be entirely tacked on and emotionally unsatisfying. I've got a mental thumbtack at the line where I think it should have ended. I can't put the sex earlier in the story because the rest of the story is all set up to get the characters to the point where they want to.
At any rate, this close to a deadline, I sometimes start getting weekend stress headaches if things aren't flowing. In this case, it's particularly likely because Scott and Cordelia really want my attention on family stuff today and tomorrow. That's going to be like a tightening screw as the moments slip away. If I could just get myself to focus and write this scene, I'd be in much better shape.
When I was on a different set of meds, this level of stress is when I'd have a wine cooler and have that be enough to let my body relax enough so that I could write. I used to have one or two a day for the 3-4 days leading up to running a LARP because that was the only way to avoid incapacitating headaches (which tended to get worse and worse as the deadline got closer with things not yet done because the headache wouldn't let me).
I signed up for
intoabar. It's not an exchange, so I won't feel quite the same pressure about needing to wedge the story into a certain sort of box. It's a challenge that involves picking a character from one canon and then listing up to four other canons one's willing to write. The moderators will randomly assign a character from one of those others to meet my selected character in a bar (or other public hang out sort of place. Given that many characters in my other fandoms are underage, I don't know that a bar will make sense. I'll see who I get).I took Brad Crawford from Weiss Kreuz for my character and offered The Pretender, Phineas and Ferb, The Pretender, and Archer's Goon - Diana Wynne Jones for the other fandoms. Crawford's kind of a cheat because he's not very likely to meet someone accidentally. Whatever he's actually up to will give me a plot of sorts.
I'm not signing up for
fandom5k or nightonficmountain. I'm still on the fence about notprimetime. I will consider treating or pinch hitting for all three. I'm eying polytrolley because someone nominated Weiss Kreuz, but I'm not so interested in offering other fandoms there, so treating might be a better idea. I'll track the requests to see if I change my mind.ETA: Okay, I still have the edges of something migraine-related. Scott's frying onions, and I really feel sick from the smell.
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Date: 2018-04-07 08:43 pm (UTC)Anyway, I have tomorrow to change my mind.
edit: oh man, intoabar. I came across something I started writing for that many many years ago -- a TVD/Community crossover. It could have been interesting, probably. Okay, it could have been ridiculous, but that's what I was going for. I'm so bad at crossovers though, I'm trying to figure out how I'd handle any of my fandoms merging.