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I'm not going to Thanksgiving dinner today. Scott told me explicitly that he would be fine with me not after we found out today that the timing is such that I would have to eat before everyone else and then fast during dinner and dessert in order to maintain my medication schedule.

(I'd have had to reshuffle things earlier in the day than when I found out in order to move the fast and such to be done by 3:00. Moving the fast later, starting it any time after 4 p.m. tends to leave me feeling really terrible the next day because I end up not eating the right sorts of things afterward because of the proximity to bedtime.)

I think Scott realized that I'm also just not coping really well at the moment.

( Discussion of anxiety and how it affects my body and mind )

At any rate, Scott gave me a massage last night, and that helped immensely. He attempted to make the noodles and made a different set of mistakes than I did. Mostly, he cut the noodles so big that he needed to cook them over night in order to get them done all the way through.

He and Cordelia also both ate some of the salty noodles for dinner because they thought I was wrong about them being too salty.

Fic Announcement

Title: Surprised by the Hard Air
Fandom: Chronicles of Amber - Roger Zelazny
Rating: M
Length: 7673
Characters/Pairings: past Merlin/Luke, background Martin/Merlin, Original Character
Tags: Implied/referenced rape/non-con, Insufficient remorse, Parenthood, Parent-child relationships, Time skips, Recovery, References to minor character death, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe - Dark, Unreliable Narrator

Notes: This is the 14th story in my House of Sulfur and Mercury series and ends the branch in which Luke is Merlin's prisoner and they end up having kids. This is a direct follow up to "Welcome and Unwelcome Both."

The rating is for themes and things implied.

Summary: “Dad thought I was joking,” Gale went on, “when I offered to help him leave. No--” Za hesitated, considering. “No. He just thought I was offering something I didn’t understand and couldn’t do.”

My throat went dry. The idea of losing Luke was more terrifying than any part of the conversation that had come before it. I hoped that za didn’t mean it, that za hadn’t already done it. Silently, I queried Ghostwheel.

Ghostwheel didn’t answer.

Surprised By the Hard Air on AO3.