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Mar. 26th, 2014 11:06 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
the_rckIf I'm going downtown, I should leave soon. It's just hard to find the motivation to leave the house. It's cold outside, and I don't know that I want the library book that much. Lunch out is a bigger draw than the book, but it seems like too much trouble, too anxiety inducing. I wish leaving the house weren't such a big deal, wasn't so hard to do. Other people can just do it. They don't have to work themselves up to it.
I also have a couple of phone calls to make. I want to talk to Cordelia's social worker when Cordelia's not around. Scott and I are thinking that we should stop going. Cordelia hasn't really learned long term coping strategies, but we've gotten mostly through the big anxiety that prompted us to start. Cordelia won't admit to anxiety about anything else, and although we know it's an issue, we can't force her to work on anything as diffuse as what we're dealing with.
I'm having trouble separating Cordelia's issues from my own. I never learned coping strategies for anxiety when I was young. By the time I started trying, nothing worked well for me. I don't know that starting earlier would have helped me, but I have the impression that anxiety is easier to address in childhood. I did really well as long as I was in school. I understood how that worked and could meet all of the expectations well. I worried a lot about the future, but right then, I could function.
Cordelia's good at school in much the same way that I was, and there seem to be things that she decides not to do because something scary happened once. On the other hand, she keeps playing sports, trying new ones eagerly. She doesn't mind not being very good at them. She wants to go to the middle school, in part, because it will be new. I just don't know.
I also have a couple of phone calls to make. I want to talk to Cordelia's social worker when Cordelia's not around. Scott and I are thinking that we should stop going. Cordelia hasn't really learned long term coping strategies, but we've gotten mostly through the big anxiety that prompted us to start. Cordelia won't admit to anxiety about anything else, and although we know it's an issue, we can't force her to work on anything as diffuse as what we're dealing with.
I'm having trouble separating Cordelia's issues from my own. I never learned coping strategies for anxiety when I was young. By the time I started trying, nothing worked well for me. I don't know that starting earlier would have helped me, but I have the impression that anxiety is easier to address in childhood. I did really well as long as I was in school. I understood how that worked and could meet all of the expectations well. I worried a lot about the future, but right then, I could function.
Cordelia's good at school in much the same way that I was, and there seem to be things that she decides not to do because something scary happened once. On the other hand, she keeps playing sports, trying new ones eagerly. She doesn't mind not being very good at them. She wants to go to the middle school, in part, because it will be new. I just don't know.
