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Aug. 23rd, 2015 09:17 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
the_rckI talked to my parents yesterday. I was calling for my mother, and my step-father answered the phone. He and I actually talked, and he didn't lose it or anything. I was afraid he might. He still hasn't talked to my sister since she told him her diagnosis and he fell apart, crying. I don't know if he's more numb now or if it's that my projected course of treatment isn't quite so scary.
My mother is coming to Michigan later this week. She'll be driving Tuesday and Wednesday and arrive in Lawton some time Wednesday evening. Part of that is so that she can work on the house, but I think part of it, too, is so that she can be close enough to help if I need it without actually staying with us.
I did a little research online, and I think that the only place that does the radiation therapy is the actual Cancer Center. I was worried they'd send me to East Ann Arbor or Domino Farms. If I end up going to appointments by cab, the Cancer Center is about $7 cheaper each way than either of the other two options. Figuring this out online was a little challenging because, for some reason I can't figure out, the webpage lists street address and phone number for each of the places that do the radiation therapy but doesn't list what city they happen to be in. Why would you even do that? There are only two options in our area code, though, the Cancer Center and the VA, and I am not a veteran.
I talked to my aunt and uncle yesterday (my father's brother and his wife). My sister wanted to mention my cancer on Facebook, and I knew that it was likely that our aunt would see that. I thought I should tell her first. She was shocked, but I think she's also kind of numb to all of the health crap that's been coming down. My uncle isn't doing so well. Nobody's told me what's going on (I think people assume that I already know, and I feel embarrassed for not knowing). My aunt referenced lung trouble, and my sister mentioned that he's using oxygen. That aunt and uncle are also the ones keeping track of what's going on with Grandma-- Her bones are healing, but she's contracted C. diff and is in isolation now and both feeling crappy and bored.
I did not need an Ativan yesterday, and I consider that a victory. We'll see how today goes. I do plan to take one tomorrow, mid-morning, just because the day is likely to be stressful.
Scott is expecting today at work to be really and truly awful. Somebody screwed up badly yesterday and nearly wrecked a crucial machine (they were literally burning chunks of congealed plastic off of it in hopes of getting it to move again). Scott signed up to pull carts again today, but he's afraid he may get pulled from that to do something less pleasant that requires more experience.
I don't know what we're having for dinner tonight. We're out of leftovers-- Well, there's probably enough chicken fried rice left to feed Cordelia-- and we have nothing thawed. Scott's also likely to be too exhausted to grill which probably means me using the oven to cook something he picks up on his way home.
I'm not sure how easy I'm going to find letting go of Metanews. The other moderator is kind of poking me and encouraging me to consider link finding for next week. She added me as an editor to the Gdoc where the links will be centralized. I keep finding myself thinking that putting in a few links couldn't hurt. I see things and think that they'd make good links for Metanews and then have to remind myself that I'm not doing that any more.
I have offered to write up an explanation of what's going on to post to the newsletter communities. I think that the newsletter needs to go on hiatus until (and unless) other volunteers can be found. The other moderator is overwhelmed just trying to keep up with the bits that are her responsibility (I think, in terms of links readers have submitted, that we're still back in June somewhere. I hope we're in June, at least. The last time I checked, about three weeks ago, we were in May). There's no question of her trying to keep up with my work, too, and with just the stuff she finds, the newsletter would be about ten links a week.
Maybe, at some point in the future when I'm less stressed, it might make sense to do some sort of annotated list of the blogs we've been gathering meta from and sticky it on LJ and DW (I don't see it being useful on Tumblr). That way, people who are really motivated can go look for themselves.
I am kind of concerned about what I'll do with myself over the next few months. I really, really don't want to end up sitting here and refreshing LJ, DW, and FFA. Over and over again. New things don't come up that rapidly, and FFA isn't very good for me, I think. There's some interesting stuff over there, but it's more than a little toxic.
My mother is coming to Michigan later this week. She'll be driving Tuesday and Wednesday and arrive in Lawton some time Wednesday evening. Part of that is so that she can work on the house, but I think part of it, too, is so that she can be close enough to help if I need it without actually staying with us.
I did a little research online, and I think that the only place that does the radiation therapy is the actual Cancer Center. I was worried they'd send me to East Ann Arbor or Domino Farms. If I end up going to appointments by cab, the Cancer Center is about $7 cheaper each way than either of the other two options. Figuring this out online was a little challenging because, for some reason I can't figure out, the webpage lists street address and phone number for each of the places that do the radiation therapy but doesn't list what city they happen to be in. Why would you even do that? There are only two options in our area code, though, the Cancer Center and the VA, and I am not a veteran.
I talked to my aunt and uncle yesterday (my father's brother and his wife). My sister wanted to mention my cancer on Facebook, and I knew that it was likely that our aunt would see that. I thought I should tell her first. She was shocked, but I think she's also kind of numb to all of the health crap that's been coming down. My uncle isn't doing so well. Nobody's told me what's going on (I think people assume that I already know, and I feel embarrassed for not knowing). My aunt referenced lung trouble, and my sister mentioned that he's using oxygen. That aunt and uncle are also the ones keeping track of what's going on with Grandma-- Her bones are healing, but she's contracted C. diff and is in isolation now and both feeling crappy and bored.
I did not need an Ativan yesterday, and I consider that a victory. We'll see how today goes. I do plan to take one tomorrow, mid-morning, just because the day is likely to be stressful.
Scott is expecting today at work to be really and truly awful. Somebody screwed up badly yesterday and nearly wrecked a crucial machine (they were literally burning chunks of congealed plastic off of it in hopes of getting it to move again). Scott signed up to pull carts again today, but he's afraid he may get pulled from that to do something less pleasant that requires more experience.
I don't know what we're having for dinner tonight. We're out of leftovers-- Well, there's probably enough chicken fried rice left to feed Cordelia-- and we have nothing thawed. Scott's also likely to be too exhausted to grill which probably means me using the oven to cook something he picks up on his way home.
I'm not sure how easy I'm going to find letting go of Metanews. The other moderator is kind of poking me and encouraging me to consider link finding for next week. She added me as an editor to the Gdoc where the links will be centralized. I keep finding myself thinking that putting in a few links couldn't hurt. I see things and think that they'd make good links for Metanews and then have to remind myself that I'm not doing that any more.
I have offered to write up an explanation of what's going on to post to the newsletter communities. I think that the newsletter needs to go on hiatus until (and unless) other volunteers can be found. The other moderator is overwhelmed just trying to keep up with the bits that are her responsibility (I think, in terms of links readers have submitted, that we're still back in June somewhere. I hope we're in June, at least. The last time I checked, about three weeks ago, we were in May). There's no question of her trying to keep up with my work, too, and with just the stuff she finds, the newsletter would be about ten links a week.
Maybe, at some point in the future when I'm less stressed, it might make sense to do some sort of annotated list of the blogs we've been gathering meta from and sticky it on LJ and DW (I don't see it being useful on Tumblr). That way, people who are really motivated can go look for themselves.
I am kind of concerned about what I'll do with myself over the next few months. I really, really don't want to end up sitting here and refreshing LJ, DW, and FFA. Over and over again. New things don't come up that rapidly, and FFA isn't very good for me, I think. There's some interesting stuff over there, but it's more than a little toxic.
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Date: 2015-08-23 02:59 pm (UTC)And you can always do a little more of it if you are bored and want to. You might find you want to do more writing instead, or who knows what.
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Date: 2015-08-23 05:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-08-25 11:30 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-08-23 03:08 pm (UTC)When we're beyond stressed, we have three go-to TV series for brainsmoothing:
Invader Zim (used to be on Netflix, but I'm not sure it is any more)
Mythbusters (I think these are still streaming on Netflix)
Steven Universe: We're about halfway through Steven Universe, and it's still making us laugh consistently. Our local SU fan gave us this link to watch the 10-minute episodes, if you're interested: http://theworldofstevenuniverse.blogspot.com/
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Date: 2015-08-23 05:08 pm (UTC)I've never tried either Invader Zim or Steven Universe, so maybe I will.
Mythbusters, though, I've seen most of because it's Scott's favorite show. He watches and rewatches episodes. Neither of us are as enthusiastic about this season, however, as we miss the build team.
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Date: 2015-08-24 07:21 pm (UTC)Zim can be gross sometimes, but we find it pretty charming. Steven Universe is a giant love letter to anime.
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Date: 2015-08-23 05:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-08-23 05:18 pm (UTC)It's a discussion community where posting comments anonymously is mandatory. People talk about various aspects of fandom, including books they like or don't like and what recipes work best for certain ingredients. ('Fandom' covers a huge range of topics, and there are certain topics that are banned-- Things like bodily fluids can't be mentioned. I had a thread frozen simply because it mentioned someone having her period.)
Because it's anonymous, people feel free to say some fairly nasty things about specific people, and that's often unpleasant. There are a few people who consistently say mean things about Metanews, for example. There were also some people who said some very unpleasant things about my Remix fic that have made me really reluctant to look at it again.
So, all in all, I'm not convinced that it's good for me to hang out there. On the other hand, there's always a discussion of some sort happening there, and I get really desperate, you know?
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Date: 2015-08-23 05:29 pm (UTC)ha I understand. I keep going back to that stupid message board even though I hate it because there's always discussion going on there.
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Date: 2015-08-23 05:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-08-24 12:40 am (UTC)Maybe I'll try it. I don't know.
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Date: 2015-08-24 01:51 am (UTC)Some of my friends use it but don't post - they just use it to read things that are there. (I post copiously...*wry*)
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Date: 2015-09-20 06:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-08-24 07:56 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-20 06:43 pm (UTC)I'm generally not keen on the privacy issues with Facebook. I'm uncomfortable enough with Google but don't currently have a good way to work around that.
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Date: 2015-08-24 12:11 pm (UTC)Sounds like every night of my life.