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[the_rck]

As it gets closer to time to leave for my appointment, I'm getting more and more anxious about the mammogram. As far as I can tell, it's more of a fear that there will be something the mammogram ought to find but that won't show up. The way things went last year doesn't help. The first mammogram, the one in April, didn't, after all, show the tumor. The second one only just barely did. Given the type of tumor, I had to have had it for quite a long time. Mucinous tumors grow very, very slowly, so it may well have started growing eight to ten years ago and just never showed on a mammogram until last August.

I've taken an Ativan now, and I'm hoping it will help. I think, in spite of the expense, I'll be going by cab. I don't think I can face the bus just now. Maybe that will change as the Ativan kicks in, but... Maybe it won't.

Comments

[tropicsbear]

Fingers crossed that the mammogram goes well.

[the_rck]

Thanks.

[lunabee34]

*hugs*

That would make me anxious too.

[the_rck]

I think it's mainly that I thought I was fine and then, suddenly, wasn't. For some reason I thought today would be easier than yesterday. I don't know.

[lunabee34]

*hugs*

I hope the test went well.

[retsuko]

*hugs*

Thinking of you!

[evalerie.livejournal.com]

**hugs**

[the_rck]

::hugs back::

[feliciacraft.livejournal.com]

Your anxiety is completely justified. Hope everything goes well. *Hugs*

[the_rck]

Thanks. I got through. I have time to relax tomorrow, so I'm going to.