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Jun. 13th, 2016 11:51 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
the_rckIn the end, I managed to reach my mother yesterday. She was in the middle of varnishing a floor, so she asked if she could call me back. We talked about half an hour later. She told me that their house won't be ready for visitors for a few weeks yet. She was also surprised that we have another week of school yet because schools around Lawton are done for the summer already.
I'm still trying to wake myself up and to find my energy again. I'm hopeful that it's just a matter of time. I think I'm better today than yesterday, but it's very hard to tell.
After we picked up the library holds yesterday, Scott and I decided to walk around a little and do some Ingress. Scott wanted to walk to campus and hack some portals there, but I didn't make it quite that far. By the time we got to State St, I desperately needed to sit down. I was tired enough that I couldn't think where to do it until Scott pointed out the Espresso Royale. After we sat for about fifteen minutes, I concluded that heading back to the library (where we had parked the car) was the best course. I probably could have carried on through sheer willpower, but doing that would have left me wiped out for several days after.
I have two chores I want to do today. First, I want to load and run the dishwasher. Second, I want to walk over to the school and pick up the ibuprofen I left there for Cordelia that she never used at all. I have two CDs from the library that have long waitlists, so I'd like to finish listening to them. I also have three more hours of the Miss Marple (Joan Hickson) set that I got last week. That also can't be renewed.
I got an interlibrary loan book of women's poetry throughout history. Our library used to own a copy, but some time between when I put it on my list of things to read and when I wanted to request it, that copy went away. I don't know if it fell apart or got stolen or what. The ILL copy is a largish paperback that's not in great shape, so it may well be that the book simply couldn't stand up to prolonged circulation. I'm finding, as with Sappho, that I want something other than the translations of the poetry. I'm still looking at the very, very old stuff, and I'm wondering about what words were actually used and what different meanings and connotations those have. I'm also wondering about things like what else we know about, say, the gods of ancient Mesopotamia. I could certainly research that bit, but I'd like to have it in the book (I'd also like, when the editor comments that we know a fair amount about the poet's life, to have some actual details beyond that).
I told the mods of WIP Big Bang that I'm not sure I can finish a draft by Sunday. I feel terrible about that. I really thought I could do this when I signed up originally. I don't think anyone signed up to do art for my story. If someone did, I will work very hard to try to finish, but if no one did, then I'm really only letting myself down. It occurred to me last night that the solution to my current technical problem with the story might be to split the story into multiple parts and have later parts be from the POV of someone other than Jadis. That will make the dratted thing a lot bigger than I wanted it to be, but it may be the only approach that will work.
I'm just so very, very tired.
I'm still trying to wake myself up and to find my energy again. I'm hopeful that it's just a matter of time. I think I'm better today than yesterday, but it's very hard to tell.
After we picked up the library holds yesterday, Scott and I decided to walk around a little and do some Ingress. Scott wanted to walk to campus and hack some portals there, but I didn't make it quite that far. By the time we got to State St, I desperately needed to sit down. I was tired enough that I couldn't think where to do it until Scott pointed out the Espresso Royale. After we sat for about fifteen minutes, I concluded that heading back to the library (where we had parked the car) was the best course. I probably could have carried on through sheer willpower, but doing that would have left me wiped out for several days after.
I have two chores I want to do today. First, I want to load and run the dishwasher. Second, I want to walk over to the school and pick up the ibuprofen I left there for Cordelia that she never used at all. I have two CDs from the library that have long waitlists, so I'd like to finish listening to them. I also have three more hours of the Miss Marple (Joan Hickson) set that I got last week. That also can't be renewed.
I got an interlibrary loan book of women's poetry throughout history. Our library used to own a copy, but some time between when I put it on my list of things to read and when I wanted to request it, that copy went away. I don't know if it fell apart or got stolen or what. The ILL copy is a largish paperback that's not in great shape, so it may well be that the book simply couldn't stand up to prolonged circulation. I'm finding, as with Sappho, that I want something other than the translations of the poetry. I'm still looking at the very, very old stuff, and I'm wondering about what words were actually used and what different meanings and connotations those have. I'm also wondering about things like what else we know about, say, the gods of ancient Mesopotamia. I could certainly research that bit, but I'd like to have it in the book (I'd also like, when the editor comments that we know a fair amount about the poet's life, to have some actual details beyond that).
I told the mods of WIP Big Bang that I'm not sure I can finish a draft by Sunday. I feel terrible about that. I really thought I could do this when I signed up originally. I don't think anyone signed up to do art for my story. If someone did, I will work very hard to try to finish, but if no one did, then I'm really only letting myself down. It occurred to me last night that the solution to my current technical problem with the story might be to split the story into multiple parts and have later parts be from the POV of someone other than Jadis. That will make the dratted thing a lot bigger than I wanted it to be, but it may be the only approach that will work.
I'm just so very, very tired.
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Date: 2016-06-13 05:08 pm (UTC)I hear you on the tired thing, too. It's the worst feeling. :(