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Aug. 23rd, 2007 12:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
the_rckTwo rather disturbing (in very different ways) things--
First, some time in the last two days, I managed to bang my foot or to drop something on it with sufficient force to turn my fourth toe partly purple. I have a vague memory of it, but I can't remember what happened or when. Just that it didn't feel like much and that I was busy, so I decided against icing it in favor of whatever I was doing at the time. It hurts now, just not as much as I'd expect given how it looks, but it didn't hurt enough for me to notice it until last night when I was trimming my toenails.
I don't want it to hurt, but I'm disturbed by the fact that it doesn't. That's not how my body usually works. Of course, I was hugely stressed out yesterday, and that sometimes creates enough physical noise to drown out minor things. I've had bruises turn up before that I couldn't remember getting.
The other disturbing thing is a bit of dissonance between children's TV conventions and the way plots would go in something I'd read or watch by choice. That is, Delia's watching Mister Rogers' Neighborhood. They had a sequence with people dressed in animal costumes and at a school that was building their self-esteem and encouraging them to accept how they were different from other members of their species. I got a creepy vibe from it and kept expecting the guy running the class to reveal his Evil Plan to conquer the world or enslave his students or something. It didn't happen, of course. Not on Mister Rogers. But still...
Getting one's genre conventions confused produces weird readings of any text.
First, some time in the last two days, I managed to bang my foot or to drop something on it with sufficient force to turn my fourth toe partly purple. I have a vague memory of it, but I can't remember what happened or when. Just that it didn't feel like much and that I was busy, so I decided against icing it in favor of whatever I was doing at the time. It hurts now, just not as much as I'd expect given how it looks, but it didn't hurt enough for me to notice it until last night when I was trimming my toenails.
I don't want it to hurt, but I'm disturbed by the fact that it doesn't. That's not how my body usually works. Of course, I was hugely stressed out yesterday, and that sometimes creates enough physical noise to drown out minor things. I've had bruises turn up before that I couldn't remember getting.
The other disturbing thing is a bit of dissonance between children's TV conventions and the way plots would go in something I'd read or watch by choice. That is, Delia's watching Mister Rogers' Neighborhood. They had a sequence with people dressed in animal costumes and at a school that was building their self-esteem and encouraging them to accept how they were different from other members of their species. I got a creepy vibe from it and kept expecting the guy running the class to reveal his Evil Plan to conquer the world or enslave his students or something. It didn't happen, of course. Not on Mister Rogers. But still...
Getting one's genre conventions confused produces weird readings of any text.
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Date: 2007-08-23 06:24 pm (UTC)My last CBC was in April. We do a full spectrum set of standard blood tests every six months to a year, depending on my meds and current symptoms.
The thing with my toe is more of shock because my toes usually hurt a lot when banged and then don't bruise. This time, it went the other way around.
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Date: 2007-08-23 06:49 pm (UTC)The leukemia makes me a tad paranoid about people having any type of unusual bruising.
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Date: 2007-08-23 07:16 pm (UTC)