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Nov. 6th, 2008 09:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
the_rckI'm cutting this because, while it's important documentation for me on the Provigil, it's also me whining and complaining and being hugely and unreasonably cranky. Please don't read it if you're going to judge me on it or urge me to pull myself together and do the things I need to do. You'll just make me crankier, and that's bad for my headache.
As to the Provigil, I've realized that it's not that it doesn't give me more physical spoons. It's that the side effects take away at least as many as the medication gives. It would appear that the medication is messing with my blood pressure. I'm usually at the low end of normal.
I didn't take any Provigil at all on Tuesday, after deciding on Monday that 100 mg was too much. Yesterday, I tried 75 mg since the side effects weren't bad at that level. Early in the day, I figured out that bending over was a problem and realized that the biggest thing I'd done to wear myself out on Monday was repeated stooping and standing, up and down over and over, probably at least once a minute for fifteen to twenty minutes.
I called the psychiatrist yesterday. Her receptionist wanted to know if I'd checked my blood pressure. I did my best not to be really cranky at the question-- How on earth would I go about doing that at home? Even if I were able to drive and had had a car, I wouldn't have been safe to drive yesterday.
When the psychiatrist called back, she suggested stepping back to 50 mg. I didn't have side effects at that dosage but also didn't get any benefit. Sadly, today, I got side effects at 50 mg. Some of that was that Thursdays are difficult and require a lot of picking things up off the floor and a lot of cat herding in the form of making Cordelia clean her room (so that the cleaning lady can mop the floor).
I'm debating whether to step back to 25 mg tomorrow or just to stop the medication for a few days. I had benefit at 75 mg last week. I want that again. I just have to find out if the side effects go away or not. If they don't, the trade off probably isn't worthwhile. There's not much point in more energy if I can't do anything with it.
::sighs:: I want to go to bed, but I have to shower first and then clean off the bed. Scott is currently in the bathroom preparing to shower. He might be done in another half an hour. I'm trying not to be mad at him over this, but Cordelia's been in bed for an hour and a half. He could have gotten in there sooner. I could have, too, but the general house agreement is that he has dibs after a day at work.
I should also put away dinner. I don't want it sitting out any longer. I just don't want to make my headache worse.
As to the Provigil, I've realized that it's not that it doesn't give me more physical spoons. It's that the side effects take away at least as many as the medication gives. It would appear that the medication is messing with my blood pressure. I'm usually at the low end of normal.
I didn't take any Provigil at all on Tuesday, after deciding on Monday that 100 mg was too much. Yesterday, I tried 75 mg since the side effects weren't bad at that level. Early in the day, I figured out that bending over was a problem and realized that the biggest thing I'd done to wear myself out on Monday was repeated stooping and standing, up and down over and over, probably at least once a minute for fifteen to twenty minutes.
I called the psychiatrist yesterday. Her receptionist wanted to know if I'd checked my blood pressure. I did my best not to be really cranky at the question-- How on earth would I go about doing that at home? Even if I were able to drive and had had a car, I wouldn't have been safe to drive yesterday.
When the psychiatrist called back, she suggested stepping back to 50 mg. I didn't have side effects at that dosage but also didn't get any benefit. Sadly, today, I got side effects at 50 mg. Some of that was that Thursdays are difficult and require a lot of picking things up off the floor and a lot of cat herding in the form of making Cordelia clean her room (so that the cleaning lady can mop the floor).
I'm debating whether to step back to 25 mg tomorrow or just to stop the medication for a few days. I had benefit at 75 mg last week. I want that again. I just have to find out if the side effects go away or not. If they don't, the trade off probably isn't worthwhile. There's not much point in more energy if I can't do anything with it.
::sighs:: I want to go to bed, but I have to shower first and then clean off the bed. Scott is currently in the bathroom preparing to shower. He might be done in another half an hour. I'm trying not to be mad at him over this, but Cordelia's been in bed for an hour and a half. He could have gotten in there sooner. I could have, too, but the general house agreement is that he has dibs after a day at work.
I should also put away dinner. I don't want it sitting out any longer. I just don't want to make my headache worse.
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Date: 2008-11-08 02:02 am (UTC)