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Mar. 9th, 2016 06:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
the_rckI signed up for the Circling the Wagons friending meme on LJ, and that asks for an about me post. I know I’ve got two such posts as stickies on DW (First post, second, less informative post). The interests list on my DW profile is more complete than that on LJ because LJ caps interests at 150. Even so, there are a bunch of things I’m interested in that I simply haven’t thought to list or that, when I searched them, didn’t bring up anyone else who’d listed them. Since I was trying to keep my list within sensible bounds, I didn’t list anything unless there were at least a handful of other people who had already listed it.
At any rate, this may cover some of the same ground as those two posts, but it may also say things I didn’t think of when I wrote those. I don’t know.
I’m the_rck on DW and AO3. I’m therck on LJ and FFnet. I crosspost all entries between DW and LJ unless I’m doing a poll. I’m only paid on DW, so polls happen there.
I have a Tumblr, but I haven’t logged in in at least two years, and I don’t think I ever reblogged more than a dozen things. I’m very not visual, so Tumblr annoys me because so very much of it is pictures that I don’t really care about. I think I’m the_rck on Tumblr, but I wouldn’t swear to it. I don’t really think I’m likely to go back, so, while you can follow me there, it’s not likely to do anything useful.
I’m on GoodReads under my wallet name, and I’m happy to share that by PM. I don’t maintain a heavy separation between this pseudonym and my offline name. Mainly, I don’t want my in-laws to find my fic (mostly, they’d pray for me a lot and give me even more come to Jesus books. I’m content with my relationship with God, thank you). At any rate, I don’t post many reviews on GoodReads, but I end up rating a lot of things I read decades ago, so that occasionally gets a little spammy. Well, not so often now, I guess. I haven’t really figured out the social side of GoodReads yet.
I’m still on AIM as estetnaoko (a name that I established in 2003 for an online rp that I ended up dropping out of. I don’t change names very often because it’s a PITA). I chat on Google, too, but I do it under my wallet name (again, PM me) because my pseudonymous Gmail tends to spontaneously block people and not allow me to unblock them. As far as I can tell, it’s Google trying to make me sign up for Google+ on that account and give them a real name to attach to the account. (Or am I being cynical?)
I will turn 49 in May. I’m female, cis, het, white, and disabled. I’ve been married for 22.5 years (anniversary in June). I have one child, a daughter who will turn 13 in May. I live in the US, in Ann Arbor, Michigan (if you don’t know US states, Michigan is the one that looks like a mitten. Ann Arbor is in the southeastern bit).
I had a small cancerous lump removed from my left breast last August, and I went through radiation therapy in October and November. I now have lymphedema in that breast, and they’re telling me I’ll have to deal with that for, probably, at least another year to year and a half. Last July, my younger sister had a double mastectomy. We’re looking into environmental and genetic factors (there’s zero family history, going back to at least our great-grandparents’ generation).
I’m trying to get back into writing and into thinking about things other than what I have to do to keep going. It’s more challenging than I expected because I tire out pretty fast
My disability is based on a laundry list of problems, but the primary factor is anxiety, both agoraphobia and generalized anxiety. There are a lot of things I can’t do easily or at all, and my anxiety tends to come out more as physical pain than in other ways. I haven’t been able to work in fifteen or sixteen years. I can’t walk very far all at once, maybe quarter of a mile at a time, four to five blocks. I can do a bit more if I plan for it, but it’s generally not worth the price I pay for it. I also have fibromyalgia, GERD, migraines (and other headaches), asthma, and allergies.
I have a lot of trouble saying that I love a particular book/show/musician/whatever. Somewhere, early on, I got the idea that I shouldn’t be enthusiastic about anything because other people would be bored and/or would judge me harshly. (I think this comes largely from my parents, but it might also be that I was a reader in a small community where most kids didn’t read.) I’m still fighting with that, and at this point, I kind of suspect I’m not going to overcome it entirely.
I mostly write fic for Weiss Kreuz (an oldish anime/manga series about some young, attractive guys who are florists by day and assassins by night. It’s, um, not all that good, but for some reason, I keep having fic ideas) and C.S. Lewis’s Chronicles of Narnia. At least, those are the only fandoms in which I’ve ever finished a story that wasn’t for an exchange or challenge.
There are a lot of canons that I quite like that I will probably never write fic for because they’re larger than I can keep in my head all at once and aren’t easy to spot check. I also don’t tend to fall for a canon and then start writing it. I consume the canon, get an idea (or not), write it (or not), and don’t have any other ideas unless someone prompts me.
I like writing things that I’d never have thought to try without prompting, but I’m slow enough that most prompts I get go unfilled. I’m also prone to the sort of fic ideas that are obviously going to take hundreds of thousands of words to complete. My stories split between things that I wouldn’t be ashamed to show to my grandmother and things that are pretty dark and need warnings of all sorts. I don’t post fic here, and when I link, I include whatever warnings occur to me.
I have a low tolerance for gore and violence in TV and movies, so there are a bunch of things that sound fascinating that I’ll never, ever dare try. (Battlestar Galactica, the one or two episodes I watched, did very bad things to me.) I also can’t handle a lot of sitcoms because they rely on laughing at people and on people being terrible to each other. For about the last ten years, I’ve been having trouble reading the sort of books I used to devour. I simply get too anxious to finish. Right now, I’m skewing toward low violence graphic novels, middle grade fantasy and SF, and non-fiction. I keep trying romances and cozy mysteries in hopes that the formula will help, but I mostly stumble over things that annoy me when I try.
I probably don’t need to say this, but— When I say that I don’t enjoy something or that it’s not for me, that is not me saying that it’s terrible or that other people shouldn’t love it (and, even if I do say that it’s terrible, I’m not saying people shouldn’t love it. Given Weiss Kreuz, that would be thoroughly hypocritical).
I actively seek out spoilers, particularly about things I don’t expect that I’ll watch or read. If I am going to read/watch, spoilers can help decrease my anxiety enough to make doing so possible. I try to be very careful about not passing spoilers on unless asked, but there are things that I assume everyone knows.
I try to post something every day. That’s more for me than because I think I’m so utterly fascinating. I’ve found that I like being able to go back and see what was going on at a particular point in time. I post on DW and use the crossposter to get to LJ. That gives a little message that says to comment only on DW. I don’t actually care where people comment or if they do. I just haven’t figured out how to edit the silly thing to say as much.
I try to answer most comments when I’m feeling well, but I won’t necessarily answer the brief, supportive type stuff. I’m grateful to get it, but it’s generally when I’m feeling rotten and having a hard time otherwise, so I give my energy to other things. If you leave a 'I hope you feel better!' or something similar, I will definitely be glad to get it. I just may not respond right away or at all.
I don’t use my writing filter any more. Trying to separate out the writing stuff got to be more than I wanted to deal with. I don’t lock much of anything else. I do have a separate journal on DW that I use to back up story fragments so that I don’t lose them in case of a local disaster (we don’t have offsite backups for our laptops. I think this is unwise, but the budget won’t currently stretch). Some of those fragments are more than twenty years old. Many of them are terrible. Most of them will never be finished unless I find someone who’s really enthusiastic about them and willing to prod me to go on. If you have a great fascination with other people’s writing debris, I’m willing to let people look. 95% of what’s there is access locked, so you’d have to tell me you wanted to see, and I can’t imagine why you would.
I read LJ and DW pretty much constantly, refreshing the screens several times a day. Reading other people’s entries is most of my social contact, but I don’t comment in proportion to my reading. I have to feel like I have something to say that’s worth hearing, and anxiety sometimes means that I self-censor. I will definitely be reading, however, as long as our internet is solid.
Feel free to ask me questions. I may not always answer, but I probably will.
My tagging is sporadic. I’m trying to be thorough about it now, but I didn’t start until a few years ago, and I’ve never gone back to tag old entries. My guess is that most of my tags aren’t likely to be of much interest to other people and that the ones that might be are probably pretty obvious.
I’ve been on LJ since 2002 (DW since 2009) and never transferred my old entries to DW. There are some swathes of time when I didn’t post much because dealing with what my daughter needed took everything I had. I was really fascinated, looking back, to see the sudden huge gaps when she started pre-school and I had to take her out, by bus, two or three times a week and stay out (I did mention the agoraphobia, right?) while she was there for 2.5 hours at a go. It was a co-op, so I had to help out once every two to three weeks, too. I really wish I’d had Ativan then.
At any rate, this may cover some of the same ground as those two posts, but it may also say things I didn’t think of when I wrote those. I don’t know.
I’m the_rck on DW and AO3. I’m therck on LJ and FFnet. I crosspost all entries between DW and LJ unless I’m doing a poll. I’m only paid on DW, so polls happen there.
I have a Tumblr, but I haven’t logged in in at least two years, and I don’t think I ever reblogged more than a dozen things. I’m very not visual, so Tumblr annoys me because so very much of it is pictures that I don’t really care about. I think I’m the_rck on Tumblr, but I wouldn’t swear to it. I don’t really think I’m likely to go back, so, while you can follow me there, it’s not likely to do anything useful.
I’m on GoodReads under my wallet name, and I’m happy to share that by PM. I don’t maintain a heavy separation between this pseudonym and my offline name. Mainly, I don’t want my in-laws to find my fic (mostly, they’d pray for me a lot and give me even more come to Jesus books. I’m content with my relationship with God, thank you). At any rate, I don’t post many reviews on GoodReads, but I end up rating a lot of things I read decades ago, so that occasionally gets a little spammy. Well, not so often now, I guess. I haven’t really figured out the social side of GoodReads yet.
I’m still on AIM as estetnaoko (a name that I established in 2003 for an online rp that I ended up dropping out of. I don’t change names very often because it’s a PITA). I chat on Google, too, but I do it under my wallet name (again, PM me) because my pseudonymous Gmail tends to spontaneously block people and not allow me to unblock them. As far as I can tell, it’s Google trying to make me sign up for Google+ on that account and give them a real name to attach to the account. (Or am I being cynical?)
I will turn 49 in May. I’m female, cis, het, white, and disabled. I’ve been married for 22.5 years (anniversary in June). I have one child, a daughter who will turn 13 in May. I live in the US, in Ann Arbor, Michigan (if you don’t know US states, Michigan is the one that looks like a mitten. Ann Arbor is in the southeastern bit).
I had a small cancerous lump removed from my left breast last August, and I went through radiation therapy in October and November. I now have lymphedema in that breast, and they’re telling me I’ll have to deal with that for, probably, at least another year to year and a half. Last July, my younger sister had a double mastectomy. We’re looking into environmental and genetic factors (there’s zero family history, going back to at least our great-grandparents’ generation).
I’m trying to get back into writing and into thinking about things other than what I have to do to keep going. It’s more challenging than I expected because I tire out pretty fast
My disability is based on a laundry list of problems, but the primary factor is anxiety, both agoraphobia and generalized anxiety. There are a lot of things I can’t do easily or at all, and my anxiety tends to come out more as physical pain than in other ways. I haven’t been able to work in fifteen or sixteen years. I can’t walk very far all at once, maybe quarter of a mile at a time, four to five blocks. I can do a bit more if I plan for it, but it’s generally not worth the price I pay for it. I also have fibromyalgia, GERD, migraines (and other headaches), asthma, and allergies.
I have a lot of trouble saying that I love a particular book/show/musician/whatever. Somewhere, early on, I got the idea that I shouldn’t be enthusiastic about anything because other people would be bored and/or would judge me harshly. (I think this comes largely from my parents, but it might also be that I was a reader in a small community where most kids didn’t read.) I’m still fighting with that, and at this point, I kind of suspect I’m not going to overcome it entirely.
I mostly write fic for Weiss Kreuz (an oldish anime/manga series about some young, attractive guys who are florists by day and assassins by night. It’s, um, not all that good, but for some reason, I keep having fic ideas) and C.S. Lewis’s Chronicles of Narnia. At least, those are the only fandoms in which I’ve ever finished a story that wasn’t for an exchange or challenge.
There are a lot of canons that I quite like that I will probably never write fic for because they’re larger than I can keep in my head all at once and aren’t easy to spot check. I also don’t tend to fall for a canon and then start writing it. I consume the canon, get an idea (or not), write it (or not), and don’t have any other ideas unless someone prompts me.
I like writing things that I’d never have thought to try without prompting, but I’m slow enough that most prompts I get go unfilled. I’m also prone to the sort of fic ideas that are obviously going to take hundreds of thousands of words to complete. My stories split between things that I wouldn’t be ashamed to show to my grandmother and things that are pretty dark and need warnings of all sorts. I don’t post fic here, and when I link, I include whatever warnings occur to me.
I have a low tolerance for gore and violence in TV and movies, so there are a bunch of things that sound fascinating that I’ll never, ever dare try. (Battlestar Galactica, the one or two episodes I watched, did very bad things to me.) I also can’t handle a lot of sitcoms because they rely on laughing at people and on people being terrible to each other. For about the last ten years, I’ve been having trouble reading the sort of books I used to devour. I simply get too anxious to finish. Right now, I’m skewing toward low violence graphic novels, middle grade fantasy and SF, and non-fiction. I keep trying romances and cozy mysteries in hopes that the formula will help, but I mostly stumble over things that annoy me when I try.
I probably don’t need to say this, but— When I say that I don’t enjoy something or that it’s not for me, that is not me saying that it’s terrible or that other people shouldn’t love it (and, even if I do say that it’s terrible, I’m not saying people shouldn’t love it. Given Weiss Kreuz, that would be thoroughly hypocritical).
I actively seek out spoilers, particularly about things I don’t expect that I’ll watch or read. If I am going to read/watch, spoilers can help decrease my anxiety enough to make doing so possible. I try to be very careful about not passing spoilers on unless asked, but there are things that I assume everyone knows.
I try to post something every day. That’s more for me than because I think I’m so utterly fascinating. I’ve found that I like being able to go back and see what was going on at a particular point in time. I post on DW and use the crossposter to get to LJ. That gives a little message that says to comment only on DW. I don’t actually care where people comment or if they do. I just haven’t figured out how to edit the silly thing to say as much.
I try to answer most comments when I’m feeling well, but I won’t necessarily answer the brief, supportive type stuff. I’m grateful to get it, but it’s generally when I’m feeling rotten and having a hard time otherwise, so I give my energy to other things. If you leave a 'I hope you feel better!' or something similar, I will definitely be glad to get it. I just may not respond right away or at all.
I don’t use my writing filter any more. Trying to separate out the writing stuff got to be more than I wanted to deal with. I don’t lock much of anything else. I do have a separate journal on DW that I use to back up story fragments so that I don’t lose them in case of a local disaster (we don’t have offsite backups for our laptops. I think this is unwise, but the budget won’t currently stretch). Some of those fragments are more than twenty years old. Many of them are terrible. Most of them will never be finished unless I find someone who’s really enthusiastic about them and willing to prod me to go on. If you have a great fascination with other people’s writing debris, I’m willing to let people look. 95% of what’s there is access locked, so you’d have to tell me you wanted to see, and I can’t imagine why you would.
I read LJ and DW pretty much constantly, refreshing the screens several times a day. Reading other people’s entries is most of my social contact, but I don’t comment in proportion to my reading. I have to feel like I have something to say that’s worth hearing, and anxiety sometimes means that I self-censor. I will definitely be reading, however, as long as our internet is solid.
Feel free to ask me questions. I may not always answer, but I probably will.
My tagging is sporadic. I’m trying to be thorough about it now, but I didn’t start until a few years ago, and I’ve never gone back to tag old entries. My guess is that most of my tags aren’t likely to be of much interest to other people and that the ones that might be are probably pretty obvious.
I’ve been on LJ since 2002 (DW since 2009) and never transferred my old entries to DW. There are some swathes of time when I didn’t post much because dealing with what my daughter needed took everything I had. I was really fascinated, looking back, to see the sudden huge gaps when she started pre-school and I had to take her out, by bus, two or three times a week and stay out (I did mention the agoraphobia, right?) while she was there for 2.5 hours at a go. It was a co-op, so I had to help out once every two to three weeks, too. I really wish I’d had Ativan then.
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Date: 2016-03-12 04:33 pm (UTC)Looking at my AO3 bookmarks...
edonohana wrote a crossover of Narnia and Anthony Bourdain's No Reservations that is excellent: No Reservations: Narnia. I think it was a Yuletide story.
Catch by Transposable_Element is a shortish study of Marshwiggle courtship customs.
There's also a summer fic exchange, the Narnia Fic Exchange (
FFnet has a lot of Narnia stories, too, but the fans there skew kind of heavily Evangelical Christian and come down hard on anything they don't think is Christian enough. I've crossposted my Narnia fics there, but I thought twice about it. Mine are pretty thoroughly innocuous, though.
I got into Weiss Kreuz through the fanfic. I'd seen three or four episodes on a VHS fansub sampler, and I had been stuck at home for weeks with nothing to do, so I tried some of the fic. There's more canon now, and the fic is harder to find because a lot of it was on individual author websites, so I'm not so sure that doing that would work now. The fanfic spends a lot of time on the villain group of attractive male psychics to the point of being out of proportion to how much screen time they get, and the female characters (there are a handful) don't tend to get much fic.
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Date: 2016-03-12 05:10 pm (UTC)